Not Ok

I am not OK
You know I'm just pretending
You already know
I wish it was ending

You know that it's true
That I wake up sad
You also know
That I often feel bad

They're not trying to hear
That I feel so lonely
You know I long to be with him
I would, if only

Isn't it funny
How  years go so fast
Who'd ever know
These feelings would last

I guess I ain't got no choice
But to keep on keeping on
Keep on pretending
That I'm really strong

Dear God please
Take this lonely feeling away
I'll always be devoted to You
Please let me make it through another day