Not Afraid

You think I am
But I'm not afraid
I'll have to show you
Of what I'm made

You think I step forward
Then take two steps back
When it's just the knowledge
That I lack

Show and tell me
What I need to know
Whenever it's time
I'm ready to go

Maybe I'm a little scared
Of not being good enough
But I've been told to have faith
And all that good stuff

I'm ready to prove to you
And the world I'm not afraid
To give myself to you
As I have prayed 

The Plead

I love you
Come get me
I need you
So badly

I'm begging
I'm pleading
We both know that
It's you I'm needing

Where you are
Is much better than here
I want to enjoy you
Over there

I promise to be good
I vow to love you right
I promise to honor you
Each  day and night

Send for me soon
I'm so lonely
I was made for you
To love you only

More Than Just A Memory

When they think of you
It's different than what I see
They see you as a particular image
But you're more than just a memory

You are my here and now
A thing that lasts through time and space
A blessed gift  for eternity
A product of God's true grace

These are the things you taught me
You showed me what to do
This is my way of acknowledging that
And another way to say "I love you"

He Is

Ishi is is so good to me
This is what I know
I love the way he is to me
The way he lets it show

When others put me down
He is always there
To put a smile upon my face
To bring me much good cheer

Though he lives so far away
We're standing side by side
He catches me when I fall
He never lets me slide

Sometimes I feel unworthy
Of his lovingness towards me
He scoffs and says "Hey, you
Were made for me, silly.

The only thing I ask of you
Is to take your place next to me
If you keep what you're supposed to
Things will turn out beautifully."

I don't know what I did
To deserve such a wonderful man
But I vow to pray for and love him
Every minute of the day I can.

Without

A queen
Without her king
Such a very
Very sad thing

She tries to be strong
Be the tears still drop
She feels she can't breathe
Her heart wants to stop

She's been given her orders
That she must wait
She's surrendered to His will
Because He's never late

Still she is sad, though
This queen without her king
She knows it's worth waiting for
And will be a beautiful thing

May she use this time wisely
To learn his habits and ways
Allow herself to molded
For future beautiful days...

 

What Love Is

I've always had a soft spot in my heart
For sad, troubled men
For as long as I can remember
From way back when

But now that I've gotten older
I've come to realize
Well, actually it was pointed out to me
By a soul I consider wise

What I thought of as love
Was in fact just human care
My need to rescue someone
Is what really took me there

When I finally found real love
That took over forty years
I took a good look back on things
And learned from all my tears

Real love is a mutual thing
Not just focused upon one
The days of me settling for crumbs
Are finally over and done

A real love doesn't take advantage
And take what they can get
Out of another's caring nature
So that their needs are met

A real love admires that quality
And wants her on his team
So they can work together
With love bursting at the seam

1 Corinthians 13:4-7
Got the definition of love right
The difference is amazing
I finally see the light

Forever thankful I'll be
I love someone who fits that mold
Forever I will treasure him
He is more precious than gold

 

Mr Perfect

I think you are perfect
Well, technically you're not
But you're perfect to me
You're what I've got

We all mistakes
I think even on the other side
Our bodies will be perfect
But we'll keep learning for an eternal ride

You have a really good heart
To me your soul is pure gold
I remember that wonderful moment
When my heart to you was sold

You know how to cheer me up
When I'm feeling down
You know when to be serious
You know when to be a clown

You have my eternal gratitude
For your loving, unselfish deeds
I vow to you that forever
I will lovingly fulfill your needs

Mister, you are perfect
At least you are to me
Let me put you on a pedestal
And love you perfectly

 

Piece Of Your Mind

Remember that time when
You gave me a piece of your mind
It literally happened in a dream
About five years behind

Since then I've gotten to know you
In a very special way
I'm evolving more and more like you
Each and every day

I guess you saw something in me
That told you I was yours
We decided to give up our pasts
And open up new doors

I don't even try to pretend
I understand why things happen as they do
I'm just so very grateful
Those roads led me right to you

 

Thank You, Jesus

I want to thank you, Jesus
For saving my life
And that one day I'll be happy
In a world free from strife

You woke me up and shook me
Right to my very core
You made me take the blinders off
Like you'd never done before

You didn't have to do it
But you did it anyway
And forever I will thank you
Every single day

You really got my attention
In a way I never would've guessed
But I guess you know the key to my soul
Though tragic, it ended up being best

The method you used is a secret
Just between You and me
I'll show my gratitude forever
Thank you, Lord, I do love thee

 

I Never See Your Face

I never see your face in my dreams
I think I know the reason why
I think it would make me lose my mind
Because you're such a beautiful guy

Rarely do I dream of you
And when I do it's just your essence
I think the very reason for that
Is I'd be blinded by your luminescence

I guess I rarely dream of you
Simply because the love is true and pure
Cannot currently be seen on the Earthly realm
A Heavenly blessing from God, for sure

So I fall asleep every night
With thoughts of you on my mind
But dreams of my past and current situations
Are pretty much all I find

It really is O.K, though
For this too shall pass
Then my dream of you will be reality
We'll be together, forever at last

Everything's Copacetic

Everything is fine
Everything's copacetic
I'm drawn to you
Because you're magnetic

Things aren't always easy
Being a woman in transition
My body's here, but my soul's there
It's really  an awkward position

I tell myself I'm O.K
And I guess it's kinda true
Except  that my soul is lonely
And my only desire is to be with you

Conversing and bonding with you is great
I'm so thankful that we can
I guess it's all preparation
For me to be the perfect woman to your man

But oh how much I long
To see, smell, taste and touch
To let you know in a physical way
That I love you , oh so much

Love Is Sacrifice

Love is sacrifice
Sacrifice of vice
Or what feels nice

In order to make,
Whatever it takes

Someone worthy feel loved..... 

In The Dark

It's not fun being kept in the dark
It makes me wonder about lots of things
I have no idea of what's going on
I don't know why the caged bird sings

I'm left with just guessing
Whether I'm wrong or right
I ain't that bright, let's face it
I barely know morning from night

I want to do the right thing
I really just aim to please
But with conflicting and unclear information
It can feel sometimes like a tease

I feel like throwing my hands in the air
It's almost as if I have no choice
When the truth is I'm begging, crying and pleading
To hear a reasonable, true and authoritative voice

If I don't have all the right equipment
How can I actively play in the game
I'll just flutter around aimlessly
And things would remain the same

Maybe I'm slow and stupid
But I obviously need things perfectly clear
If I know what I am dealing with
I will give all I have to share

Happy Birthday, Rebecca

Happy birthday, Rebecca
(Does Rebecca mean to Becca again?)
I don't really know
But I know you're a good friend

I hope that this year
All your wishes come true
Because no one deserves it
Any more than you

Please keep on smiling
And spreading good cheer
You're a wonderful person
And I'm happy you're here!

Come On Home

Come on home
To Nomy's place
Where I'll be sure
To put a smile on your face

Sit right down
I'll make you plate
Just tell me when
And it's a date

Come to my arms
I'll hug you so tight
I promise to make
You full with delight

Come to my place
You're the one I adore
I'll treat you like a king
And love you forevermore

 

Changes

You've put me through so many changes
Over the past few years
 I've learned about so many things
I've shed so many tears

Back and forth confusion
Of if it's real or not
Time and time again
You prove it's right on spot 

I knew my life wasn't normal
Ever since I was a kid
I tried very hard to force it
Behind the facade I hid

It took so many decades
For you to come along
Through God's grace and glory
You showed me right from wrong

I'v come to terms with the fact
We must wait for when the time is right
For us to be together
I love you with all my might

 

Finally

limited computer access again! Whew! So much love needs to be spoken...

Scared

*I'm not scared of spiders
I'm not scared of snakes
I'm not scared of a lion
In the morning when he awakes

I'm not scared of earthquakes
I'm not scared of hurricanes
I'm not scared of thunder and lightning
Or of torrential rains

I'm not scared of tigers
I'm not scared of bears
There is only one thing
That brings out my fears

I love you so much
More than I understand
And my one fear
Is always on hand

What I fear most
Is you don't love me, too
It terrifies me so
What can I do

You say if I truly love you
One thing is a must
That I have faith in your love
And in it I should trust

OK, my love
I'll trust what you say
Because loving you as I do
Is really the only way

*ok...I am actually scared of those other things, too..lol

I See You

When I looked into the mirror
In this vision in my mind
I saw your reflection
So beautiful and kind

When I look at me
I see God's child and you
All of that within
In everything I do

Took a wrong turn a while ago
But He grabbed me back with His arms
It was then He made me admit
All along I was in love with you and your charms

One might think
The revelation came too late
But He knows just what He's doing
So a little longer we must wait

Even though I am waiting
The truth is you both are here
I see your reflection in the mirror
I see you clearer than clear

Something Special

He must be saving
Something special for me
He's making me wait
Here so patiently

That something special
I know that it's you
But the how's and when's
I'm not privy to

It's called testing my faith
And I ain't gonna lie
It is extremely hard
And everyday I cry

But I will cry and wait
Because I know He loves me so
I'll trust and do it His way
Because He knows more than I know

The ballgame's in His hands
He saves the best for last
He knows what's best for both of us
Soon our tears will be the past

 

Betrayed!

Why does my face betray me
Giving away my sadness
While I'm putting on a facade
Of joy and gladness

I'm busy fronting
Pretending I'm alright
Then my face gives me away
That I'm crying every night

It's like my very soul
Is in charge of my face
My ego no longer in control
It's been put in it's place

Is there nothing I can do
I sincerely ask
To cover up my pain
And find a new mask

Hope And Dream

When I begin to hope and dream
The tears flow and cannot hide
That's because in my hopes and dreams
You are right there by my side

I think of places we can go
Or trying out a new thing
But it's a moot point and hollow
If I'm not the wind beneath your wing

I want to live a life with you
We can fly to the highest height
Or just hold each other and smile
Because loving you is right

I'll keep hoping and dreaming
I've prayed, so it will come true
But you're well worth the wait and tears
Because the only one for me is you

Which Should I Do?

Should I harden my heart
Or drown in my own tears
Which would be better
To alleviate my fears

If I harden my heart
Turn into an ice queen
I'd be lying to myself
You know what I mean?

If I drown in my tears
Which I've been doing all along
I'd be being true to myself
Whether right or wrong

I guess I'll keep being loyal
They say patience is a virtue
One thing I know is true
I will never, ever hurt you

 

You're My Only Temptation

Don't think about it twice
You're my only temptation
Know where I stand 
I know my station

I can see others
With my eyes
They might be fine
But you're my prize

You're the only one
I want to hold me tight
You're the only one
I want to kiss goodnight

You're the only one
Who can stimulate my mind
You're the only one
I ever hope to find

When I dream of love
I dream of only you
I believe you when you say
You feel the same way,too

So have no fear,my love
You are my only temptation
From now until forever
You're my sweet sensation

 
 

You Make Me Happy

You make me happy
Just by you being happy
Just by you being you
Even if I can't have you now
Just knowing your soul is smiling
Is enough for me
If that's all I can have
May your happiness
Dry up my tears
Because my love for you
Is all that matters
You make me happy

 

Whenever I See

Whenever I see your picture
I blush
My face
Turns flush
My heart begins
To rush
I tell it to hush
Although I can't help
But gush
Honey, you're just
So lush
My composure gets so week
I become mush

 

Until

I promised you
That I would wait
But the loneliness
Is what I hate

But for me
There is no other
I'm ordained 
To be your lover

So I'll chug on through
Each and every day
Because I love you so
What can I say?

I see other guys
But they don't turn me on
I can only see you
Is that so wrong?

Our little talks
Are what gets me through
They'll have to hold me
Until I can be with you 

So Nice!

You're so nice
Nicer than rice
Couldn't have been luckier
If I rolled the dice
Because you're so sweet
Like sugar and spice

You're so sweet
You knocked me off my feet
The sweetest soul
I could ever meet
When I think of you
I nearly overheat

You're so kind
You blew my mind
The very best
I could ever find
You're the best creation
God ever designed

 

...And Counting

Not feeling, so far
Sad today
Just feeling happy
In my own way

You were theirs
Now you're  mine
Because of that
I feel fine

Who you were
Is gone away
It's been 5 years
Ago today

You're at home
With God now
After you took
Your last bow

You're not the man
Who you were here
You're the real you
Over there

Where you are
There's no fortune or fame
You're just a good man
So I took you're name

Soon will come the time
When this world will end
Then we're together forever
My very best friend