Raging Storm

My soul is screaming
Screaming in tortuous pain
Like a raging storm
Here it comes again

My soul screams out loud
But inside of me 
Falls on human deaf ears
The way it has to be

It's more than a longing
It's eternal aching
For what I need most
Feeling forsaken

You went away, taking most of my soul
Leaving a mere essence behind
It had to have been known
I would lose my mind

I know I had to be left broken
In order for me to be fixed right
I've been transformed into a proper spirit
My body and remaining soul cries day and night

The old me would've been gone by now
That person I was before
My spirit just won't let me
My love multiplying forevermore

It's all so very hard for me
Sometimes I wish I were dead
But when I promised to wait, no matter the pain
I meant every word I said...

24/7

I want to be with you 24/7
4/30/12/365
This is the truth
It ain't no jive

You keep telling me
The trip will happen soon
You don't like to see me crying
From midnight until noon

The closer it comes
I just want it more badly
There's nothing else I want
I'll follow you gladly

You say eveything's almost ready
You're mostly just waiting for me
You say I'm a big part of the picture
When I arrive how complete the picture will be

I guess I won't stop crying
Til I'm with you 24/7
When that glorious time comes to be
I'll know that I'm in Heaven

 

The Sentence

Going on 6 years
Of my undetermined sentence
Maybe it's just a part
Of my overall repentance

I feel like I'm in prison
In heart,soul and mind
In solitary confinement
The loneliness, not kind

I love you more and more
As each day slowly goes by
But, hey, maybe that's the point
Maybe that's the reason why

I water this garden of love
Each day with my own tears
Maybe the harvest will be abundant
After all these years

If my love and devotion
Has reached up to you and risen
All this pain will be worthwhile
When I'm released from this here prison

Just Tell Me

What is it that you need
I'm here at your command
What is it that you want
I'm here to lend a hand

I don't want to sit here
Just collecting dust
Please go ahead and use me
Before I start to rust

Now that I know my purpose
I'm anxious to service you
Please don't leave me in suspense
Just tell me what to do

I was made just for you
To be the helper by your side
I don't care who knows it
I've got nothing left to hide

I know we're in different locations
And that is so hard for me
But I'll do my darndest to be there for you
And be the best woman for you that I can be

Our Gift

I wish that we
Could give God a present
Something very nice
Something so pleasant

What could we give
To the Creator of it all
Something so precious
Whether big or small

There's not a thing we can give Him
That He doesn't already own
We can give Him love and loyalty
The same that to us He has shown

Forever and ever, God
In all that we do
We'll give you the glory
Because we love you!

No One Would Believe

If they could only see
What you've done for me

If they could just know
How far you had to go

If they just knew
All that you do

But no one would believe
They would never conceive

But God knows what you did
It was planned before I was a kid

Paralleled in  a much  smaller extent
Only when it was revealed I knew what it meant

We had to both hit bottom dirt
We had to both really hurt

The only way for us to gain
Was for us to experience pain

Then you left
My soul felt cleft

But only for a matter of days
Then it's when you began to amaze

You found me
You ground me

You put me back
Gave me what I lacked

Like the light of day
You showed me the way

Gave me unconditional love
With your gift from above

You didn't want me to keep making mistakes
You wanted better for me for both our sakes

You shepherded me back into His fold
I wish this story could be told

But no one would believe
They would never conceive....

Thank you for loving me

That's What He Said

I come to you worrying and crying
Wondering what it's going to be like
But you're not worried at all
Just care free ol Mike

Sitting here freaking out 
About things I don't understand
Trying to wrap my head around stuff
Come on, gimme a hand

I sense that smile
Upon your face
You can't tell the secret
Til the end of the race

I beg and plead
I scream and cry
You say "Why you trippin'
Why, oh why?

You've been assured
That everything will be fine
One day the light
On the truth will shine

I know how you feel
Remember, I've been there
Filled with questions
Worry and fear

Now I'm on the other side
And I see things so clear
One day you'll have that
My sweet,dear

I won't spoil the surprise 
It will be ever so grand
Have faith in God and me
I'll never let go your hand

Now please stop that crying
I hate seeing you sad
Let's just have fun together
And in each moment be glad."