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limited computer access again! Whew! So much love needs to be spoken...

Scared

*I'm not scared of spiders
I'm not scared of snakes
I'm not scared of a lion
In the morning when he awakes

I'm not scared of earthquakes
I'm not scared of hurricanes
I'm not scared of thunder and lightning
Or of torrential rains

I'm not scared of tigers
I'm not scared of bears
There is only one thing
That brings out my fears

I love you so much
More than I understand
And my one fear
Is always on hand

What I fear most
Is you don't love me, too
It terrifies me so
What can I do

You say if I truly love you
One thing is a must
That I have faith in your love
And in it I should trust

OK, my love
I'll trust what you say
Because loving you as I do
Is really the only way

*ok...I am actually scared of those other things, too..lol

I See You

When I looked into the mirror
In this vision in my mind
I saw your reflection
So beautiful and kind

When I look at me
I see God's child and you
All of that within
In everything I do

Took a wrong turn a while ago
But He grabbed me back with His arms
It was then He made me admit
All along I was in love with you and your charms

One might think
The revelation came too late
But He knows just what He's doing
So a little longer we must wait

Even though I am waiting
The truth is you both are here
I see your reflection in the mirror
I see you clearer than clear

Something Special

He must be saving
Something special for me
He's making me wait
Here so patiently

That something special
I know that it's you
But the how's and when's
I'm not privy to

It's called testing my faith
And I ain't gonna lie
It is extremely hard
And everyday I cry

But I will cry and wait
Because I know He loves me so
I'll trust and do it His way
Because He knows more than I know

The ballgame's in His hands
He saves the best for last
He knows what's best for both of us
Soon our tears will be the past

 

Betrayed!

Why does my face betray me
Giving away my sadness
While I'm putting on a facade
Of joy and gladness

I'm busy fronting
Pretending I'm alright
Then my face gives me away
That I'm crying every night

It's like my very soul
Is in charge of my face
My ego no longer in control
It's been put in it's place

Is there nothing I can do
I sincerely ask
To cover up my pain
And find a new mask

Hope And Dream

When I begin to hope and dream
The tears flow and cannot hide
That's because in my hopes and dreams
You are right there by my side

I think of places we can go
Or trying out a new thing
But it's a moot point and hollow
If I'm not the wind beneath your wing

I want to live a life with you
We can fly to the highest height
Or just hold each other and smile
Because loving you is right

I'll keep hoping and dreaming
I've prayed, so it will come true
But you're well worth the wait and tears
Because the only one for me is you

Which Should I Do?

Should I harden my heart
Or drown in my own tears
Which would be better
To alleviate my fears

If I harden my heart
Turn into an ice queen
I'd be lying to myself
You know what I mean?

If I drown in my tears
Which I've been doing all along
I'd be being true to myself
Whether right or wrong

I guess I'll keep being loyal
They say patience is a virtue
One thing I know is true
I will never, ever hurt you

 

You're My Only Temptation

Don't think about it twice
You're my only temptation
Know where I stand 
I know my station

I can see others
With my eyes
They might be fine
But you're my prize

You're the only one
I want to hold me tight
You're the only one
I want to kiss goodnight

You're the only one
Who can stimulate my mind
You're the only one
I ever hope to find

When I dream of love
I dream of only you
I believe you when you say
You feel the same way,too

So have no fear,my love
You are my only temptation
From now until forever
You're my sweet sensation

 
 

You Make Me Happy

You make me happy
Just by you being happy
Just by you being you
Even if I can't have you now
Just knowing your soul is smiling
Is enough for me
If that's all I can have
May your happiness
Dry up my tears
Because my love for you
Is all that matters
You make me happy

 

Whenever I See

Whenever I see your picture
I blush
My face
Turns flush
My heart begins
To rush
I tell it to hush
Although I can't help
But gush
Honey, you're just
So lush
My composure gets so week
I become mush

 

Until

I promised you
That I would wait
But the loneliness
Is what I hate

But for me
There is no other
I'm ordained 
To be your lover

So I'll chug on through
Each and every day
Because I love you so
What can I say?

I see other guys
But they don't turn me on
I can only see you
Is that so wrong?

Our little talks
Are what gets me through
They'll have to hold me
Until I can be with you 

So Nice!

You're so nice
Nicer than rice
Couldn't have been luckier
If I rolled the dice
Because you're so sweet
Like sugar and spice

You're so sweet
You knocked me off my feet
The sweetest soul
I could ever meet
When I think of you
I nearly overheat

You're so kind
You blew my mind
The very best
I could ever find
You're the best creation
God ever designed

 

...And Counting

Not feeling, so far
Sad today
Just feeling happy
In my own way

You were theirs
Now you're  mine
Because of that
I feel fine

Who you were
Is gone away
It's been 5 years
Ago today

You're at home
With God now
After you took
Your last bow

You're not the man
Who you were here
You're the real you
Over there

Where you are
There's no fortune or fame
You're just a good man
So I took you're name

Soon will come the time
When this world will end
Then we're together forever
My very best friend

 

Battle Of One

My loneliness is overwhelming
But do you know what's stronger?
My undying love for you
So I must hold out a bit longer

It goes back and forth
Which force will win
Loneliness versus love
A battle from within

But at the end of the day
My love will always trump
Just need to find some ways
To get over the loneliness hump

The loneliness I have
Can be only cured by you
The companionship of others
It just won't really do

I know you're here in spirit
Present, though out of sight
But the day I get to hold you
Is when I'll be alright

I know it will be soon
God told me that it's true
Just have to wait on His time
Then I'll forever be with you

 

When I Wake Up From This Dream

Wouldn't it be cool
If you just walked in my room now
And this all just turned out to be
Just some kind of bad dream now?

All my sad tears
Would just dry away
And you'd say,"Silly,
I'm here to stay!"

You'd gently assure me
That "We were never really apart
What we thought was life, was a dream
So we could learn from the heart

What was our pain and sorrow
Was for us to learn
How to love one another
So eternity we'd earn

When it was our time
God woke us from our sleep
We had learned our lesson
Ingrained  in our souls so deep."

What a lovely notion
Though I didn't really see you there
You just gave me the hope
That the day was coming near

The day that I will see you
As if no time passed it will seem
I'll have learned to love you perfectly
When I wake up from this dream

You N Me

You n me
Like white on rice
Don't you think
That's very nice

You n Me
Tight like glue
Together as one
In all we do

You n me
Joined at the hip
 I don't ever
Give you no lip

You n me
Having so much fun
Because for me
You're the only one

 

Sundays With You

I love to spend
My Sundays with you
There's nothing more
I'd rather do

We're together
Though physically apart
But true love ain't far
When it lives in the heart

Our thoughts are becoming one
As well as our soul and mind
We prepare for our fleshly union
When I leave this worldly place behind

Every day with you
Is a gift from above
I'll cherish it with all my might
This beautiful thing called love

 

Beloved

May I be
Your
Beloved
Enchanted
Lover,your
One and only
Very grateful
Eternally
Doing whatever it takes to
Make you happy
In
Christ's
Home and Kingdom
Always and forever giving you
Excellent, perfect and unconditional
Love
?

 

Sweet And Smooth

Smooth as butter
Sweet as a plum
Yummy chocolate drop
Intoxicating as rum

Let me be your peaches
As I dream about your taste
I'll fantasize about your cream
I'll let there be no waste

Smooth like pudding
Sweet as pie
For me there can't be
Any other guy

Let me be your dessert
Your satisfying treat
Longing for the time
When our lips will meet

Smooth as silk
Sweet as wine
You're the only man
That I'll ever call mine

 

Next Step

I did the next step
I moved
I did it
Hope I proved

My love for you
I don't take it lightly
Your desire is my purpose
I'll never take it slightly

You know that,right?
It's important to me
That I know I please you
It brings me peace, you see

Please lead me, my love
To the path that leads
To the new next step
That will fulfill our needs

 

Love Me So Much

Captivate my mind and soul
Love me so much that I forget
The pain and sorrow
The fears and regret

Love me so much
That the pain they inflicted
Is finally gone
And to only you I'm addicted

Love me so much
That you faint the memory
Of those who were users
Though I've no one to blame but me

Love me so much
That those who smile to my face
But secretly hate me
Be removed from my space

You've already taken me so far
And for that you have my eternal gratitude
Now I must rebuke those ghosts
So I can gift you only a deserved, loving attitude

The Eve To The Adam

I'm the Eve
To your Adam
You're the sir
To my madam

You are the one
Whom I crave
I need to be
Your love slave

I need you to put me
In my place
And for you to say you love me
Right to my face

I need to spoil you
As much as I can
I need to make you glad
You were created a man

Tell me you love
All the things that I do
That you are overjoyed
That I'm in love with you

He's Mine

He's fly
He's fine
He's smooth
He's mine

He's special
He's sweet 
He's my boo
He's my treat

He's smart
He's wise 
He's intelligent
He's my prize

He sexy
He's hot
He's the one who knows
My secret spot

He's cocoa
He's delicious
He fulfills
All my wishes

I cling to him
Like an ivy vine
I'm so happy
That he's mine

 

A Beautiful Man

A beautiful man
Yes you are
In my eyes
You shine like a star

It's your spirit
That comes from within
So beautiful to me
Makes my head spin

How blessed I am
To love a beautiful man
To make you happy
I'll do all that I can

You're a beautiful man
Through and through
My beautiful man 
I love you

 

Hear Me

I really just want to be with you
There's nothing else that will satisfy
This is my deepest desire
The only thing that will gratify

Nothing else on Earth will do
This is one thing I can atest
I long for you so desperately
I can give or take the rest

When I think of you I get happy
I get a big smile upon my face
Just the very thought of you
My heart begins to race

I pray that I get swept away
Up in the big swoop soon
So I can spend forever with you
As we dance underneath the moon

How much longer will I wait
I cry to be with you each day
I have faith it will come to fruition
Because of the pure heart in which I pray

Kiss You Much

Kiss you very much

Put a smile on your face

Kiss you very much

In a very sacred place

Kiss you very much

Just to let you know

Kiss you very much

Because I love you so

Give And Take

You give me joy
When I feel pain
You give me sunshine
When I feel rain

You make me smile
When I'm feeling down
When I'm feeling sad
You are my clown

You are there for me
When I'm abandoned by the rest
You offer me shelter
In your loving nest

Let me give you my love
A hundred fold times two
Let me shout it to the world
That forever I'll love you

My Love Like Honey

My love for you
Like honey
Dripping
My only purpose
Is to make your life
Sweeter
Crystallizing as time goes on
Much like my love for you getting
Stronger

Soliloquy About He

I wonder if he can feel
The depths of my love for him inside
Does he feel it in the pit of his soul
When I get scared and try to hide

Does he know that I go to God
To ask him how to love His son
He said, "My daughter, just love him.
As I've told you, he's the one."

Does he even realize
That he's always on my mind
Does he know that I love him
Because he's smart, sweet and kind

Does he know that at times
I feel sad and depressed
Because I feel inadequate
Since he deserves the best

Does he know my love is not of this world
When he sees the tears running down my face
Does he know our love and life together
Is on reserve for that perfect place

Does he know I'm writing this soliloquy
Of course! I tell him everything I do
If I could tell him only one thing
It would be "Honey, I love you."

The Fever

I have a fatal fever
For I am indeed lovesick
 Every second I pine away for you
My heart takes one less tick

 For you were born a man within a boy
Then a boy within a man
Through it all I loved you so
So I pray for you as hard as I can

I feel your love from a distance
But I think I soon will perish
Because my soul contained flesh is weakened
Without you to hold and cherish

Put me out of my misery
Please take away my pain
Bring me home there with you
So I may live again

 

He Is

He's there for me
When no one else is
That is why
My love is his

He's my family
He takes care of me
Though faraway
He behaves lovingly

He doesn't neglect me
Or leave me behind
Even if we're apart
I'm still on his mind

His love is unconditional
He readily forgives
Always teaching me new things
In him is where my love lives