...And Counting

Not feeling, so far
Sad today
Just feeling happy
In my own way

You were theirs
Now you're  mine
Because of that
I feel fine

Who you were
Is gone away
It's been 5 years
Ago today

You're at home
With God now
After you took
Your last bow

You're not the man
Who you were here
You're the real you
Over there

Where you are
There's no fortune or fame
You're just a good man
So I took you're name

Soon will come the time
When this world will end
Then we're together forever
My very best friend

 

Battle Of One

My loneliness is overwhelming
But do you know what's stronger?
My undying love for you
So I must hold out a bit longer

It goes back and forth
Which force will win
Loneliness versus love
A battle from within

But at the end of the day
My love will always trump
Just need to find some ways
To get over the loneliness hump

The loneliness I have
Can be only cured by you
The companionship of others
It just won't really do

I know you're here in spirit
Present, though out of sight
But the day I get to hold you
Is when I'll be alright

I know it will be soon
God told me that it's true
Just have to wait on His time
Then I'll forever be with you

 

When I Wake Up From This Dream

Wouldn't it be cool
If you just walked in my room now
And this all just turned out to be
Just some kind of bad dream now?

All my sad tears
Would just dry away
And you'd say,"Silly,
I'm here to stay!"

You'd gently assure me
That "We were never really apart
What we thought was life, was a dream
So we could learn from the heart

What was our pain and sorrow
Was for us to learn
How to love one another
So eternity we'd earn

When it was our time
God woke us from our sleep
We had learned our lesson
Ingrained  in our souls so deep."

What a lovely notion
Though I didn't really see you there
You just gave me the hope
That the day was coming near

The day that I will see you
As if no time passed it will seem
I'll have learned to love you perfectly
When I wake up from this dream

You N Me

You n me
Like white on rice
Don't you think
That's very nice

You n Me
Tight like glue
Together as one
In all we do

You n me
Joined at the hip
 I don't ever
Give you no lip

You n me
Having so much fun
Because for me
You're the only one

 

Sundays With You

I love to spend
My Sundays with you
There's nothing more
I'd rather do

We're together
Though physically apart
But true love ain't far
When it lives in the heart

Our thoughts are becoming one
As well as our soul and mind
We prepare for our fleshly union
When I leave this worldly place behind

Every day with you
Is a gift from above
I'll cherish it with all my might
This beautiful thing called love

 

Beloved

May I be
Your
Beloved
Enchanted
Lover,your
One and only
Very grateful
Eternally
Doing whatever it takes to
Make you happy
In
Christ's
Home and Kingdom
Always and forever giving you
Excellent, perfect and unconditional
Love
?

 

Sweet And Smooth

Smooth as butter
Sweet as a plum
Yummy chocolate drop
Intoxicating as rum

Let me be your peaches
As I dream about your taste
I'll fantasize about your cream
I'll let there be no waste

Smooth like pudding
Sweet as pie
For me there can't be
Any other guy

Let me be your dessert
Your satisfying treat
Longing for the time
When our lips will meet

Smooth as silk
Sweet as wine
You're the only man
That I'll ever call mine

 

Next Step

I did the next step
I moved
I did it
Hope I proved

My love for you
I don't take it lightly
Your desire is my purpose
I'll never take it slightly

You know that,right?
It's important to me
That I know I please you
It brings me peace, you see

Please lead me, my love
To the path that leads
To the new next step
That will fulfill our needs

 

Love Me So Much

Captivate my mind and soul
Love me so much that I forget
The pain and sorrow
The fears and regret

Love me so much
That the pain they inflicted
Is finally gone
And to only you I'm addicted

Love me so much
That you faint the memory
Of those who were users
Though I've no one to blame but me

Love me so much
That those who smile to my face
But secretly hate me
Be removed from my space

You've already taken me so far
And for that you have my eternal gratitude
Now I must rebuke those ghosts
So I can gift you only a deserved, loving attitude

The Eve To The Adam

I'm the Eve
To your Adam
You're the sir
To my madam

You are the one
Whom I crave
I need to be
Your love slave

I need you to put me
In my place
And for you to say you love me
Right to my face

I need to spoil you
As much as I can
I need to make you glad
You were created a man

Tell me you love
All the things that I do
That you are overjoyed
That I'm in love with you

He's Mine

He's fly
He's fine
He's smooth
He's mine

He's special
He's sweet 
He's my boo
He's my treat

He's smart
He's wise 
He's intelligent
He's my prize

He sexy
He's hot
He's the one who knows
My secret spot

He's cocoa
He's delicious
He fulfills
All my wishes

I cling to him
Like an ivy vine
I'm so happy
That he's mine

 

A Beautiful Man

A beautiful man
Yes you are
In my eyes
You shine like a star

It's your spirit
That comes from within
So beautiful to me
Makes my head spin

How blessed I am
To love a beautiful man
To make you happy
I'll do all that I can

You're a beautiful man
Through and through
My beautiful man 
I love you

 

Hear Me

I really just want to be with you
There's nothing else that will satisfy
This is my deepest desire
The only thing that will gratify

Nothing else on Earth will do
This is one thing I can atest
I long for you so desperately
I can give or take the rest

When I think of you I get happy
I get a big smile upon my face
Just the very thought of you
My heart begins to race

I pray that I get swept away
Up in the big swoop soon
So I can spend forever with you
As we dance underneath the moon

How much longer will I wait
I cry to be with you each day
I have faith it will come to fruition
Because of the pure heart in which I pray

Kiss You Much

Kiss you very much

Put a smile on your face

Kiss you very much

In a very sacred place

Kiss you very much

Just to let you know

Kiss you very much

Because I love you so

Give And Take

You give me joy
When I feel pain
You give me sunshine
When I feel rain

You make me smile
When I'm feeling down
When I'm feeling sad
You are my clown

You are there for me
When I'm abandoned by the rest
You offer me shelter
In your loving nest

Let me give you my love
A hundred fold times two
Let me shout it to the world
That forever I'll love you

My Love Like Honey

My love for you
Like honey
Dripping
My only purpose
Is to make your life
Sweeter
Crystallizing as time goes on
Much like my love for you getting
Stronger

Soliloquy About He

I wonder if he can feel
The depths of my love for him inside
Does he feel it in the pit of his soul
When I get scared and try to hide

Does he know that I go to God
To ask him how to love His son
He said, "My daughter, just love him.
As I've told you, he's the one."

Does he even realize
That he's always on my mind
Does he know that I love him
Because he's smart, sweet and kind

Does he know that at times
I feel sad and depressed
Because I feel inadequate
Since he deserves the best

Does he know my love is not of this world
When he sees the tears running down my face
Does he know our love and life together
Is on reserve for that perfect place

Does he know I'm writing this soliloquy
Of course! I tell him everything I do
If I could tell him only one thing
It would be "Honey, I love you."

The Fever

I have a fatal fever
For I am indeed lovesick
 Every second I pine away for you
My heart takes one less tick

 For you were born a man within a boy
Then a boy within a man
Through it all I loved you so
So I pray for you as hard as I can

I feel your love from a distance
But I think I soon will perish
Because my soul contained flesh is weakened
Without you to hold and cherish

Put me out of my misery
Please take away my pain
Bring me home there with you
So I may live again

 

He Is

He's there for me
When no one else is
That is why
My love is his

He's my family
He takes care of me
Though faraway
He behaves lovingly

He doesn't neglect me
Or leave me behind
Even if we're apart
I'm still on his mind

His love is unconditional
He readily forgives
Always teaching me new things
In him is where my love lives

The Waiting

Lonely for affection
Only want what's authentic
So I wait only for you
Though I'm perceived as eccentric 

Lonely and longing
For the touch of a man
No longer willing to settle
So I'll wait as long as I can

Lord, help me through these days
And each long, lonely night
I have faith in your word
That everything will be alright

Onward I go
Another day of waiting
Yet I'm one day closer
To the goal I'm anticipating

Your Diamond Girl

I'm a diamond
Because of you
You polish me up
And I shine through

God let you find me
All covered in dirt
He wanted me to be yours
As you dusted off the hurt

I was His unrefined gift to you
For you to honor Him
You polished me through the years
You brought out the diamond within

Now I'm here to make you shine
To honor you and make you look good
I promise to always do this
The way a good diamond should

 

Faraway

Faraway lover
Undercover

You're always near
In my heart I hold dear

One day we will touch
What we long for so much

My tears you will wipe away
For this is what I always pray

Never again will I be lonely
For you're the one who loves me only

Anointed and sanctified
God promised me He'd provide

That blessed day when I look in your eyes
I'll know at last, I've achieved my prize

 

A Hug From You

A hug from you
From afar
You really know how
To raise the bar

Just when I think
I couldn't love you more
You do something more wonderful
Than you had before

You make me feel special
Like no one else can
I feel honored
That you are my man

No one else cares about me
The way that you do
From now until forever
I'll belong just to you

All Day

I could sit here all day writing poems to you
But I'll be drowning in my own tears if  I do

But I guess that would be a good way to go
Maybe that's my destiny,  for all I know

No one said it would be easy, at least not directly to me
But forever being in love with you is where I happen to be

What to do? I've looked, I've searched and I've prayed
But spending days loving you is where my heart has stayed

So it looks as if you're stuck with me loving you all day
But I get the distinct impression, you'd have it no other way!

Dear Love,Be Happy

Dear Love,
When I see old pictures of you, being genuinely happy, it makes my soul swell with delight. This is what I want for you, what I hope for you. Even though I'm not there, I see the pure, innocent joy in you and I want this for you more than anything.
Part of me wishes I can place you into that happy moment. Even if it were only for a few hours, I know at that exact moment in time, you were blessed with the peace and happiness God wants for His children in a permanent way. I feel I should step out of that moment in time and leave you with whatever or whomever was causing you joy so that you might go on feeling that way.
See, the thing is, I know you want the same for me, but the truth is you are what makes my soul dance with happiness. Even just me looking at you being happy is enough for me.
I don't know about you, but you will see some pictures of me in the past  where I appear to be happy. Unless, they were from childhood, the feelings weren't genuine. Forced happiness. Do you know what I mean? You might even see one of me crying for joy, but in my heart of hearts, I know I was only crying for what I thought I finally accomplished. It wasn't real and was born out of sin. I know this now. I can only hope when I see you looking so incredibly happy, that these were genuine emotions. I feel I can tell the ones that are real because I see the purity and innocence in your eyes. I can see God's special child glowing through you. This is what I want for you, forever.
My love, if I think you could achieve this beautiful feeling without me, I will gladly step aside. I could spend forever just being an angel watching you be happy.
But I'm human and always will be. Even when I go on to my eternal home. You love me and want my happiness as much as I do yours. So it's only fair to let you know that my happiness is you.
Let me forever fulfill my role of making you happy, so I too, can be happy.
I know you are now happy. Let me see that smile,boo!

Tell Me It's O.K

I've been told
That it's my mission
To love you purely
Without condition

But I do crave your love,I can't deny it
Is that O.K?
You said "Yes, because you're literally part of me
It cannot be any other way.

You love your hand unconditionally
If it went away you would miss it
It's the same how you crave for me
My mouth, you want to kiss it

It's O.K that you need me
Stop feeling bad
I need you too
I hate seeing you sad

The hand will unite with the body
When some time has passed
You'll be happy, I promise
When we're together at last

I know it's hard for you
But you're doing fine
We'll never be apart
Because you're my lady, all mine."

Beside Myself

I'm beside myself
When I think of you
Which is something
I constantly do

I'm beside myself
Not in front or back
When it comes to my heart
You've got the knack

I'm beside myself
With my sexy boy
When I think of you
I jump for joy

I'm beside myself
Oh, the things you inspire
Forever and always
The only one I'll desire

I'm beside myself
I know I'm not wrong
I will be one with you
For eternity long

I'm beside myself
And I'll do all that I can
To show how I love
That you are my man

 

Tell Me

Tell me where it's at
Tell me where we're going
Tell me what to do
What should I be knowing

Tell me when to go 
Tell me how to act
Tell me what is real
Tell me what is fact

Tell me that you love me
Tell me it's really true
Tell me that you're happy
That I'm in love with you

 

No One

Do you realize I love you
More than I thought was allowed
I feel no shame
In fact, I feel proud

I wish I could share it
With all whom I know
I want them to be happy for me
But we're on the down low

You're such a beautiful man
I see the Christ-like qualities in you
I see the love and intelligence
In everything you do

The thing that will make me happy
Is knowing your sorrow has been released
Your eternal happiness is my strongest prayer
And all unhappiness has been ceased

So much love I have for you
I feel sometimes I'll lose my mind
Thank God for putting it in my heart
There's no one more perfect I could find

 

Mojo Rising

Feeling kinda amorous
A little bit this morning
The mojo is rising
I give you fair warning

My lips are quivering
My heart palpitates
My libido is growing
My mouth salivates

My mind's just on one thing
My needs are immense
My feelings so strong
My desires intense

I want you so badly
Please tell me how
I feel I'll explode 
If I don't have some now