Hold On

Honey
A
Nice
Gift
Occurring 
Nigh

I Always Loved You!

I loved you before I was born
Since we were innocent souls with God in Heaven
I had to follow you to Earth because I missed you so much
I did in almost 3 years plus seven

I tried to be near you
But you just moved around
I tried to replace you
But mistakes were only found

I couldn't put my finger on
Why my life was just defeat
Until you had to go on back home
I remembered you were the one to make me complete

So now I'm in a conundrum
For you are there and I'm still here
I've leaned so much since you've been gone
But my longing has reached new heights, my dear


I realize that it's not my call
I'll obey and do as I'm told
I'll never again try to replace you
You're the only one I want to hold


I don't completely understand His wisdom
But my spirit knows it's true
One day I will follow you*back home
To forever be with you

You're Killing Me

You're killing me, man
Both literal and figurative sense
I need some explanation
At times, I can be dense

Literally, each day I'm not with you
I can feel myself slowly dying
Figuratively, the things you say continually amaze
Killing me with truth, You got me crying

Everyday you blow my mind
You make my heart beat like it's crazy
The things you say, blow me away
Even though sometimes my understanding is hazy

So you see, you're killing me
Just stay with me all the way
I'm nervous in a good way
To see what you've planned today

Conversation

"I'm blue"
"Why"
"Because I wanna be with you"
"You know what you have to do"
"I guess I have a clue"
"Yeah, I knew"

"But I want more"
"Why"
"Because I love you to the core"
"It won't be long 'til you walk through the door"
"Until then, my heart's lonely and sore"
"It won't be long, I told you before"

"I guess I can't do nothing but wait"
"Why"
"Because you're so great"
"And I'm your mate"
"You drew me in with your bait"
"You'll soon be all mine on a very near date"

Sweet Feet

You've got sweet feet
They can't be beat
I want to kiss and cuddle them
That would be so neat!

I won't cheat
I'll kiss them twice
I'll do it again
Then I'll repeat

Those sweet feet
I'll wash them,too
Lather, rinse
Then repeat

There's no deceit
I love your feet
They're not too big
They're not petite

Those sweet feet
The sweetest I could meet
I'll take care of them
And give you a receipt

I'd love to love
Your sweet feet
To kiss and love them
Would be a treat

Dance With You

I can't wait to dance with you
Maybe something fast, but mostly slow
I want you to take the lead
And let the passion flow

Take me by the hand
Make my dream come true
You promised we would
I have faith in you

Let our bodies move in rhythm
Let's get closer and tighter
Let's do what comes natural
There is nothing righter

Your Brain

Remember that time
I ate your brain
It didn't make me crazy
It kinda made me sane

But I'm not as smart as you
I didn't get enough
I need to dine on more
So I know more stuff

Partaking in your brain
Is the glue that made us bond
The most symbolic dream I've had
And the one of which I'm most fond

I want you to take me there
Give me some more brain
Take me to that place
Where your love will reign

I Love You

I love you of my own volition
I love you without condition

I love you without force
I love you without remorse

Well, I guess I can't say I love you with free will
It's the purpose of my creation that  I will fulfill

Through eternity I'll give you love as I've done forever and before
I just can't stop loving you because it's your gift forevermore

Other Girls

Them other girls
Want to kiss your lips
They want to grind you
With the hips

They just want you
For your name
They want in
The money game

They'll do anything
To get inside
Open their legs
And swallow their pride

But I don't care
If you're a janitor at school
If you drive a bus
Or you just clean pools

If you were a regular Joe
They wouldn't think twice
But me on the other hand
I think you're nice

You don't have a penny to give
No one knows your name
That works for me
I love you just the same

I'm not like other girls
Only you know what I mean
We are one soul
No one can come between

The Plan

You had to go
So I could fall
The only way
To shatter the wall

The invisible wall
Of untruth
You had to lead me
To the proof

If the status quo remained
How would I ever know
What I was missing
So you had to go

It was part of the plan
That it was your time to leave
It shattered my perception
So I truly believe

Such a roundabout way
For things come to be
But you know they say
The truth shall set you free

I also happen to know
The plan is ripe for fruition
The tears will dry up
As we get what we're wishin'

Many won't see
Because they're happily blind
Thanks for the heads up
You're incredibly kind

For me to understand clearly
I wish you hadn't had to roam
But again, it's part of the plan
Soon we'll all be home

That's What He Said

"Although you don't completely understand
 It's for your best to follow my command
 I'm not saying it because I like to demand
 But I want you to trust me and take my hand
 Please let me lead you into the promised land
 You can travel from snow to sand
 I guarantee life will never be bland
 If you wait a little longer, your life will be so grand
Soon.... "

I Want

I want to spoil you
Without you becoming a brat

I want to prepare you lovely meals
Without you becoming fat

I want to put you first
Without it going to your head

I want you to live forever
Without becoming dead

I want to give you my undivided attention
Without my thoughts going astray

I want you to remain humble
While I always let you have your way

I want to help you fulfill your goals and dreams
While you still keep putting me first

I want to satisfy your soul
So it'll never hunger or thirst

One day these things will happen
Sooner than I realize

These things will happen one day
Up in Paradise

The Save

Thanks for the save
And that you forgave
Not wanting you would be depraved
So now I'll behave
Holding off what I crave
In my eyes you're so brave
Because  you didn't cave
Thanks for all that you gave
And the road you have paved
For you I always rave
Forever my love is your slave

Chocolate Straw

I've got a hankering 
For that chocolate straw
Between my lips
And my jaws

I won't bite
Just a gentle suck
Please say I can 
It'll be great luck 

I don't ask for much 
But I want this little thing
It'll be so good 
That the angels will sing

Please Align

My heavenly Father, please let my mind
Align with my true soul and spirit
Whatever things are blocking the path
Please, Lord, please clear it

Sometimes I make things hard for me
With the troubled thoughts I think
I come to You in prayer
You can make them go in a blink

I ask you to exorcise the ghosts of his past
Please erase mine, too
So we can really move forward
And we can start anew

Please align our minds,bodies and souls
The way you originally intended us to be
Please eliminate the blockers
And let Your truth shine brightly

Feelin' Al Green

Layin' here feelin' the breeze
Comin' in through my window
Listenin' to some slow jams
There's one thing that I know

I love you more than ever
As the music makes my soul rise
Can't get you out of my mind
So I start to fantasize

Wishing you were here
And we were hip to hip
I get that familiar tingling
As I picture you kissing my lips

I start to sweat and shake
My body perspires and I quiver
Feeling so incredibly ripe
Just waiting for you to deliver

When will I get to touch that cocoa brown body
Because I feel I'm going to lose my mind
I promised I'd wait as long as it takes
You can count on me being the most loyal girl you can find

But I gotta tell you ,man
I'm feelin' kinda, very Al Green
That's what I'm wanting right now
And I now you know what I mean

 

To Heaven

Dear God,

Please let me speak up to Heaven
Because that is where I want to be
I have it on good authority
That there are nice people waiting on me

I'll be the guest of honor
Of the party they'll throw for me
Because they really all do care
And want to see me happy

They are all very aware
Of this deep love I have inside
They have all witnessed
Every time I've cried

All those many times
I spoke to You in a different tongue
Made me feel right at home
Because that's where my hat is hung

I wonder how long it will be
When I receive what you personally promised me
It's a unique design for no one else
I just can't wait until I see

In the meantime, I'll do what you told me to do
Though no one else could ever understand
Your directions come with plenty of love
And your wish is my command

Amen

The Tale Of Sad Tire Happy Tire

Once upon a time, a tire was created. She was created with a purpose and was excited to fulfill that purpose.

For reasons unknown to her, she was re-purposed. "They" decided to make her into a planter because that's what "they"wanted. No one consulted her. That's not what she wanted.

So she spent her life being a planter. She had some sad times as she was neglected during the winter or where people would walk all over her or kick her around. She had some good times being surrounded by beautiful flowers in the spring and summer. People would gather around her for picnics. She met many insects. Some nice, some not so nice. She existed.

But she knew in her heart she could never be happy unless she was fulfilling the purpose for which she was created. 

That hope is the only thing that kept her going some days. That one day she would be united with the luxury Rolls Royce she was created to help. To help him on his journey. That was her purpose. Although he was doing what he was made for, he knew deep inside that she was his tire and could never be complete without her. So they both prayed, everyday, that one day they would be together so he would be complete and she would be the happy tire she was created to be.

One day it shall be so... 

 

Heaven With You

I want to go to Heaven with you
I want to go there now
Soon I will get there with you
That is my solemn vow

Wherever that you are
That is where Heaven lies
Wherever that you're not
Is the place where my soul dies

A place where no one bothers you
Not family or fair weather friends
They don't use or exploit you
For their own selfish ends

You can be free to be yourself
Without worry, judgement or fear
No one will ever put you down
You can do all that you hold dear

Most of all, we can love each other
The way you promise me we will
Every moment in Heaven with you
Would be such a blessed thrill

Quiet As It's Kept

Quiet as it's kept
So no one else can see
What is really happening
Between you and me

What we have together
Will soon make it's way to light
They will all see the truth
When the time is right

So, not for nothing , baby
It's probably better this way
So I can have you to myself
With no one to get in the way

I really love you, honey
You're the only man for me
In a world of billions of people
You're the only one I see

Damsel In Distress

I am a damsel in distress 
Please help me out of this mess
Nothing  but sadness and  confusion in this life 
And the only thing I want is to be your wife 
Let me fly away with you 
That's all I want to do 
Lay there with you in the sun
My king,you are the only one 
The most precious thing to me
With you is where I need to be 
In our prayers every night 
You ask that soon the time is right 
Please, dear Lord ,bring us closer together 
We vow our love forever and ever

My Passion

You are my passion
I don't care who knows 
I will never hide it 
I'm proud if it shows

It's not an accident 
That I feel like I do
He designed it this way 
That I would love you 

So then who am I 
To keep it in the closet
I'm not ashamed 
To make a love deposit 

I announce my love 
In this public declaration
I hope this admission 
Gives your spirit elation 

You know the truth
And so do i
My passion burns for you 
You sweet,wonderful guy

You're The Balm!

You're the balm
That soothes my soul
You're the one 
To heal that hole

Doctor, doctor 
I feel sick
Put a bandage
On my heart's nick

You can cure me
Cuddling me in your arms
You can fix me 
With all your charms

My love for you 
Is oozing out my pores
Just tell me that 
I'm forever yours 

There's just one more thing 
To make me calm
It's knowing you love me 
Because you're the balm

Systematically

Systematically
Shutting down
But I won't
Wear a frown

I can clearly see
That it's going down this way
If that's the way of the game
I'm more than willing to play

I know what you said
Quite sometime ago
But now you mean business
No time to lose, I know

Is there anything I can do
To help things move along
I'll do anything for you
I'll even try to be strong

I hope you can see
I'm loyal to my goal
That goal would be you
To complete your soul

Committed and determined
I'll do what you ask me to
For the only thing I want for me
Is to forever be there for you 

Rabid Fans

Your rabid fans scare me. 
They act like you are a 'god'
That you could do no wrong 
That unlike the rest of us,you had no sin
That everything was always someone else's fault 
Don't they realize that makes you look weak?
That it makes you an idol you never agreed to be and that it takes away your humaness?
They are part of the problem. 
Not me. I love you for the real, perfectly flawed soul that I see. Human just like me.
You've done good and loving things for people.  Just like the single mom of 6 who works  2 jobs for her kids.  Like the  neighborhood  man who started a grassroots program to feed and house the  poor. Like  the doctors and nurses who risk life and limb to help people  in  war torn countries. They are just as good as you, but not put on a pedestal. 
Can't they see the pedestal is a lonely place to be?  An unnatural  place to be?  Even now they want to keep you there..But you are not there. I know where you are are and how you are.  They need to put it to rest and do their own good in the world. 
If only they knew what  I do..but it's not for them to know. 


Love knows no boundaries... 

Tangibility

What my soul is crying out from you 
Is a dose of tangibility 
I prayed that it's something 
That soon you'll be given the ability 

I need to physically  hear and see you 
I need to taste,touch and smell 
If I don't get to do this soon
I could never really be  well

Please don't get me wrong 
I appreciate what we've got 
My mind,body and soul aches for you 
I pray and pray a lot 

I love it when you reach out to me 
You're really sweet and kind 
Forever I will yearn for you 
I hope that you don't mind

Fine Brown Frame

Was looking at a rerun of Sanford and Son
Fred singin' 'bout a "fine brown frame"
Soon as I heard that line 
I knew it was your new nickname 


You got a fine brown frame
That feels just right to me 
Thinkin' 'bout lovin' it
Sends me into ecstasy 

You got a fine brown frame
And brown sugar that's so sweet 
I want to show you gratitude 
From your head down to your feet

Gimme some of that fine brown frame
Make me beg for more 
I'll make you feel so good
Like you never felt before 

Tail Waggin'

I imagine when I see you
I'll be waggin' my tail
It'll be rockin' back n forth
Man, will that thing sail !

Ok, so i don't really have a tail
But I think you know what I mean
Just the very sight of you
Will be the most precious thing I've seen

All I'm really saying is
I can't wait to see your baby browns
Because you sure can put a smile on my face
When I have the miseries and downs

I said it before and I'll say it again
You are God's wonderful masterpiece
My tail waggin' and love for you
Will never, ever cease

 

Forest For The Trees

He said

"Just calm down
I know you understand.
Maybe not fully
But please don't demand.

I know you came
To follow me there
But I'm not really gone
You know that I'm near

A reflection of me
That's what you are
You're a me "Lite"
Carrying the same scar

You know things must go down
The way that they do
You think it's unfair
What you go through

They betray and lie on you
And make you feel bad
They sneakily take away your joy
And make you feel sad

You've lost what you had
But in your heart when you pray
You know on some level it's for the best
That it turned out that way

We had the same issues
Though on a different scale
You're the female part of us
And yes, I am the male

You'll finish what I started
While you have this chance
You'll do it for both our sakes
That nasty boil you'll lance

In the meantime,I'm getting ready
In this better place, I'm healing
Getting things ready for you
It will be a joyous feeling

That's the part you can't completely grasp
You can't see the forest for the trees
But trust me, you'll be overjoyed
Once you're here with me! "

 
 

The Global Warming Warning

The global warming
Affecting the earth
Is just a symptom
Of the pangs of birth

It's near the end
Of what will be
The effects of abuse
Is what we'll see

The Earth is sick
But cannot take a pill
Because no one is rich enough
To pay that bill

Right now it's detoxing
With a fever running high
Before we know it
It will soon pass us by

It's too late to prevent
Whether in country or big city
It will all burn up
This den of iniquity

But the Earth will be renewed
So you mustn't fret
It'll be better than ever
On this you can bet

The Bridge

He said
"We are the bridge
Between here and there
Just link with me
You'll soon be here

Please don't worry
I won't let go
I'm pulling you in faster
Than you could possibly know

The signs for you should be stronger
Everything now is falling into line
The evil, lies and negativity
Should tell you you'll soon be mine

I know it's not what you planned
This bridge between you and me
Please trust this way is for the best
If you just hold on you'll see

No other person,place or thing
Could be the bridge that brings you here
The bridge is simply you and me
Hold on tight, we're almost there"

You Know I'm Talking About You

I feel happy
Although I am sad
I feel at peace
But not always glad

I'm surprised that you love me
With all of my baggage
You're surprised that I love
Since you no longer have cabbage

We live as one together
Though our bodies are apart
Time and space don't exist
When we love from the heart

It's part of the plan
Though I don't always get it
But it doesn't hinder our love
We simply won't let it

I won't sit here and pretend
That I don't often cry
That I don't understand
And I often ask why

Patience, faith and love
Are all that we've got
We're making this sacrifice
And that says a lot

Hard-Headed Woman

I don't know why I'm so hard-headed
I'm like this everyday
But I always get the same answer
Every time I pray

I hope He doesn't get annoyed
At my need for constant validation
But it's just so out of the ordinary
But then again, it's His creation

Maybe it's not so extraordinary
What He's commanding me to do
It's actually quite simple
And it's nothing that is new

I thought I was meant to do something grand
But I guess it's just not my place
You did enough for both of us
And it's up to me to finish the race

No fanfare or accolades
Simply do just what He's demanding
A secret that I cannot tell
Beyond my understanding

I have my marching orders
I must have faith that it's enough
But when you sometimes drop those clues
I know that it's the right stuff

You Smell Like Cookies

You smell like cookies
I really like that
Just being near you
I get really fat

What kind of cookies?
Chocolate chip
That kind that go
Straight to my hips

You smell so delicious
I just want to eat you up
Just pour me some cold milk
In a big ol'  huge cup

Having you inside me
Will make me feel good
It's the only thing to satisfy me
Just the way that it should

Haunted By Your Circus

Your circus is haunting me
With everything I do
I try to hide
But I can't escape you

It's not the real you
The you that I know
It's just who "they" see
It's part of the show

Everywhere I go
I see sneaky magicians
I see plenty of clowns
Trying to take their positions

You left the circus, stage right
So long ago
But the way that it haunts me
You wouldn't even know

On the Internet or TV
Or in line at the store
I really don't know
If I can take any more

People are starting to whisper
When I walk on by
It's part of the circus
But I am so shy

I feel like I'm the lady
Walking the scary tightrope
I pray I don't fall
That's all I can hope

I'm haunted by your circus
The music stuck in my head
I guess it will always haunt me
Until I am dead

Chocolate Tears

Since my baby done left me
Been cryin' days, nights and years
A reflection of his very soul
I'm cryin' chocolate tears

He went on to a better place
But he didn't take me
I'm left with a phantom fragrance
Of my love, sweet and chocolatey

Come back and get me my love
I'm drowning in my own tears
I could fill all the Earth's oceans
With my sad chocolate tears

 
 

A Boy Like You

I never thought I'd know a boy like you
Coming from they type of neighborhoods we did
Someone who makes me smile and laughs
And jokes around and kids

You know when to be appropriate and serious
You teach me things you learn
My everlasting love
Is not something you had to earn

You've taught me all about being natural
We've spent hours discussing God
I guess by others stereotypes
They'd really consider you odd

I guess I shouldn't call you a boy
Because you're the true definition of a man
Though you have a sweet boyish quality
You make me feel girlish when you can

I never thought I'd know a boy look like you
But I think we've known each other always
Thank you for brightening my life
Like a beautiful burst of sun rays

 

Just A Regular Blog Post

When I wake up in the morning, I am usually very groggy. "Please,no,not yet." I beg with futility. It's a fight I know I cannot win.

Within in seconds, negative thoughts flood my mind with no intention on my part. Sad things, upsetting things,bad things,wrongs and injustices. Shortly thereafter,I make my first conscious decision of the day:to pray. I want my first free will choice of the day to speak to my Heavenly daddy. I love Him and want to tell Him so. I want To thank Him for His blessings, ask Him to forgive my shortcomings, ask Him to watch over and protect my children and friends. I ask for help to get through the day and I ask that I do His will-not mine. This is so important to me. It's the least I can do after what He's done for me.

Then I briefly obsess about what the will is. I constantly pray for truth. Not even necessarily for truth that will "look good" to others. At this point, I'm beyond that. What is the truth? What is my purpose?

The past few years, I've pondered many thoughts and theories. I keep looking,but I always come back to love. Period. I can't go beyond this. I try to go back to my old self of thinking that doing something "wonderful" or being successful or having things is the key. But I can't. Those things are lies. At least for me. Maybe not to others. I do not know. I just know that I love God. I love people and I have immense love for a particular individual. I know it is from God Himself that it was placed in my heart. I can't run and hide. I tried. It's the truth and it will be. Amen, in other words. He is "I Am" and the truth He gave me is "What Is".

Love and my truth aren't necessarily compatible with this world. I know that now. I also know that I am not part of "this world" and it goes way beyond this temporary earth dwelling. Love cannot and will not die. When someone leaves this earth, the love doesn't die. It's forever. Maybe even enhanced. I know when a particular someone passed on, I died. I'm still alive in my current form, but I died and then the process of being born again unto who I really am commenced.  It's almost like his death saved my life. My soul. Resuscitated me back to who I was before this world and people and circumstances got to me. Is it egocentric of me to think he was used to bring me back? Maybe not. God knows I was in a horrible messy fog. I now realize it was mostly self-inflicted due to disobedience. I had completely lost sight of who I was supposed to be. I must have ignored all the hints. He had to do one dynamic blow to get my attention. There were many blows before. I was in pain and had lost so much. Even all of those didn't wake me up. He knows the source of what my soul is on a level beyond human comprehension. Something lurking within me that I may have known on some level,but failed to accept. Hiding by denying and trying to fill with "life". It only worked for a little while. He had to take away the one that would make me understand. And, I believe, vice versa.

See, I believe when we pray that His will be done on Heaven as on Earth, it means just that. Both. I think it continues. I think it's simultaneous. I think we can help each other on both sides and I pray that I am doing my part. The specifics are no one Else's business. It really only pertains to me and wouldn't be understood by anyone else. It's made me far more willing to accept that although I may not understand someone and what they do, it is not mine to understand !

I'm saying all of this to say.....hmmm. I don't really know. It was just put on my heart to do so. Maybe one day these words will help someone. Or maybe just typing it out will only help me. Either way, I helped a child of God. I love Him.
And I love "him" too....

I Know That You Know

Why you in Cali
When I'm over here
I know that you know
I want you near

There y'all got sunshine
Here we got snow
I want to be there
I know that you know

I know that you know
Your bones are always inside
I know that you know
From this world you must hide

I know that you know
I want to move closer to you
Though our souls are forever bonded
No matter what I do

One day we'll hold hands
We'll bask in the sun
I know that you know
His will, will be done

My Valentine's Day Haiku (He Knows Better Than I)

Dreadful loneliness and intense love

My inner  world full of contradicting paradoxes

I faithfully accept His will 

 

Weakest Link

I have this feeling
That I'm the weakest link
Y'all know what's going on
I feel I'm gonna sink

I want to do my best
Be everything for you
But there's so many times
I don't know what to do

All I can do is pray
For God to shine his light on me
To light up the path in which I go
To where He wants me to be

This is a cry for help
To you, the stronger link
Please find a way to show
Just what we really think

I want nothing else at all
But to revel in my part
And I look up to you
Because you're very smart

Continue to be my shepherd
And tell me what to do
Solder me into your strong link
So I can be with you

Feed My Mind

Feed my mind
Make it shine
Keep telling me
That you're mine

Tell me things
You already know
Help my mind
Blossom and grow

Show me the way to go
Point me in the right direction
Teach me things
Keep pointing out the connections

Our mind, body and soul
Will be one, you always say
I'm starving for more you
I get hungrier everyday

I find we aren't the same
As we were several years ago
We're less me and you as the world has seen
And the new us is starting to show

Keep feeding me my love
Until I'm completely satisfied
Let me learn from you, my king
Until our separateness has died

Pie In The Sky

Patiently waiting
For my pie in the sky
When the time comes
It'll make my tears dry

The most wonderful pie
Is waiting for me
It won't cost me a dime
It's a gift that is free

That pie is silk chocolate
It's lovely and sweet
It's calling out to me
"Hurry,move your feet!"

You see, that pie also wants me
I've heard, more than I could know
My pie is anxiously waiting
For the day that I show

My pie in the sky and I
Are tethered by an invisible cord
We belong together
We're each others reward

I'm coming my sweetie pie
I'll soon be right there
With your sweet chocolate self
I'll follow you anywhere!