If ...

Look, I know I need you now
But I just realized I needed you then
How different my life could have been
If I'd have known you way back when

Yes, I agree, in an eternal way
We've always known each other
But if only you could have rescued me then
I wouldn't have  been drowned or smothered

I suppose I would have just gotten in the way
Of the purpose that was ordained for you
It would have been selfish of me
From distracting you from what you had to do

I know,that speaking for myself
Nothing turned out like I thought it would
But something that I've come to learn
Is that all works out as it should

I'm glad we're back together
Although we are far apart
One day it won't be an issue
We'll soon be one, flesh and heart

Knowledge

It's just that there's those people
Who live for the status quo
It's just not who I am
I want to learn and grow

I want to gain some knowledge
Birth it from its womb
I want to uncover hidden secrets
Buried within its tomb

I just so hunger and thirst
For every new little fact
The more knowledge I receive
The more useful I can act

The things that I have learned
Have been invaluable to me
Some prefer their comfort zone
They'd rather be blind than see

I'm not here to judge them
They're where they're predestined to be
All I ask is the same from them
To not judge and just love me

Haiku 3

Yes I am in love 💌
No, I can't speak about it
You will know one day

He occupies me
He runs through my mind all day
Yes, he is tired 😴

He's a gift from God
But he says I am his gift 🎁
I say we both win

One Day

Just spending time with you
Is like a bandage to my soul
For those moments in time
I feel so whole

Why cant it be this way
Every second of the day
I need this connection
To always stay

I guess it can't be that way
Or this would be Paradise
I guess it's not my time for that
But you ensure me a lovely surprise

I can't stop thinking about you
You say that makes your spirit glad
You want us to be happy with what we do have
The more time I spend with you,the less I'll be sad

Dear God,please help me hold on
Sometimes it just seems so long
If I have faith and persevere
The day will come I'll hear his song

I Feel You

I feel you when I'm awake
I feel you when I'm asleep
I feel you now,all the time
Because the love is deep

The love is so strong
It disregards time or space
I know that you and I are one
The only two of our own race

Time and time again
The truth was shown to me
Never did I have such peace
Then when I surrendered willingly

When you continue to do your part
And I continue to do mine
I know deep within our soul
We are blessed and will be fine

I Asked God

I asked God

"Why did things turn out the way they did?
Why was true happiness hid?"

He answered

"You were my child before this Earth.
I knew you always,before your birth.

You must know, I wasn't wrong
You were set aside,all along

Through your experiences, whether bad or good
You were being molded, you did the best you could

I know you always loved me
You were as eager as you could be

Somewhere along the way, you stopped putting me first
For what the world had to offer, you developed a thirst

You wonder why your way didn't work out in the end
Just listen to me. I'll tell you my friend

You tried to do it without me and do it your own way
That will never work for you,,at the end of the day.

You tried to force a square peg into a hole that was round
But as you know now, that's not where happiness was found

I was there with you, through the mistakes that you made
I heard you each and every time you prayed

Then came the time where enough was enough
I had to remove you from all the wrong stuff

As your Father, I knew what I had to do
I knew the one thing, that would finally get to you

It's been a process, about a decade long
But it has made our bond so strong

I tell you what my will is, every single day
You resist a bit,as you don't understand my way

But you never give up- I'm proud of you
No matter how hard, you push on through

I made you a promise. It's just between you and Me
It will come to fruition. Just wait and see!

I know you have worries. I know you have doubt.
Just do as I say. Love is what I'm about. "

The Blessing

I was lying down in bed,crying
Wishing there were certain things I had
There's a couple things I'd like to get
Not having them  makes me sad

I've been praying for years
But the answer is "no"
Or maybe "not yet"
Should I just let it go?

It then dawned on me suddenly
He rained the very best blessing on me
The fact that I get to be in love with you
Is the most beautiful blessing there could be

When I wake up in the morning
And before I go to bed
In between are loving thoughts of you
Constantly running through my head

So I conclude it is a fact
And Heaven knows it's true
If I have nothing else
I'm so blessed to love you

   

Turnaround

When we first came together
I was drawn to you
I just wanted to help you
With whatever I could do

I just wanted to care for you
To forever fill your cup
I'd finally found my other half
You showed me what was up

I wanted to silence the haters
Or anyone mean to you
It didn't quite turn out as planned
You showed me something new

I didn't know I loved you
All the time you were around
But when you had to leave
Is when my love was found

You brought me closer to God
Told me doing His will was first
You brought up to me eternal truths
For knowledge, you gave me thirst

You've shown me nothing but good things
You clearly want the best for me
You don't hold back from lovingly scolding
If I am doing things I shouldn't be

You removed some people and things
That weren't serving a positive need
Though that wasn't always easy
You surely have sown a good seed

So here I am thinking my mission was to care for you
When all along you've been caring for me
I can't wait for the day I'm with you
To show you my gratitude eternally

Love Is Waiting For You

Love is waiting
For everyone
That means all
Bar none

That includes those
Who've treated me real bad
Who've said and done mean things
Those that mad me sad

Those who turned people against me
Those who talked behind my back
Those that treated me cruel
Those that given me lots of flack

Whether you believe it or not
My love for you is there
I may not go around you
But I'll lift you up in prayer

If you told me you were drowning
 I surely would lend a hand
Because I know hurt people hurt
That's what I understand

Of course I love those
Who've been so kind to me
You're the ones I look up to
The ones I'm inspired to be

No matter how you do me
My love is waiting for you
I guess it's the spirit of God in me
I guess that's just how I do

Innocent

He Said What?

He said "You're not your family
And I'm not mine
That's just the truth
And it's perfectly fine

They are separate individuals
With souls and minds of their own
Only you and I are one
You'll never be alone

Don't feel you have to
Be part of the clan
Because at the end of the day
I'm your man

We were put with them
At the time of our birth
But it doesn't mean we're connected with them
In our life after Earth

We were all put here
To accomplish God's will
But not all relationships
Will fit that bill

Don't want it so bad
Their acceptance is not required
Just focus on us
You'll never get tired

I'm your family
We're bound together
Don't worry what's loosed
In Heaven I'm yours forever"

His Love Is The Feul

His love is the fuel
That keeps me going
All is good
When it's constantly flowing

If we work together
Imagine what we could accomplish
Big or small
Anything you wish

It'll be a thing of beauty
Because it is blessed
With you and I together
It will be the best

So don't hold back
Tell me what to do
Whatever it is
I'll do anything for you

What He Said To Me

"I'll give this to you
Along with my heart
When we're together
We'll never part

I want to give to you
The love you lacked in life
In other words
You'll be my eternal wife

Never again
Will you experience sorrow
I don't know when
Maybe tomorrow

Until that day
I give this to you
Please think of me always
In all that you do."

Just Ask

I get you now
More than I ever did
Light has been shed
On things that were hid

Why I'm here
I'm trying to understand
But you're here for me
With a helping hand

They just assume things
And they just judge
They don't really know us
So they won't budge

Morphing into your abuser
Is a hard face to see
We try to change
We try to flee

We try to do God's work
But they don't see it our way
Constantly misunderstood
It's harder everyday

Just trying to find some happiness
Just like everyone wants to do
It's just we're a bit outside the box
They don't understand me and you

You've already graduated
Unto a better place
I'm the part of us held back
To finish up the race

I know that I can do this
With God and you by my side
And I know that when I get there
All my tears will be dried

Feelings Of Love

Your voice to me
Is like a soothing balm
It can numb the pain
And keep me calm

It can turn my darkness
Into a ray of light
It can comfort my soul
On a lonely,cold night

And, also, too
When I see your face
I know nothing can separate us
Neither death, time,nor space

One so inwardly beautiful
Such as you are
Our souls are just one
No matter how bodily far

I long to feel your kisses and hugs
I know God's the one who planted the seed
Maybe my tears are making the love grow
And in the end, we'll both get what we need

Before I Came

Before I came to be
There you were
Something was needed
For this pure sir

From your soul
I was made for you,nearly clone
But more like the shadow or essence of you
So though we couldn't see it, you'd never be alone

Then at a predestined time
He sent you down to the right place and DNA
I guess I must have missed you
Because I was eventually on my way

So much symmetry
In hindsight,I see
So very much the same
Yet played out differently

But now what's left for me to do
Except keep loving you and wait
Even though it's incredibly hard
I know God's timing is never late

Just Sayin

He just asked me
"Aren't you glad you got that poison out your system?"
I told him I am and I understood now
Then I looked him in the eyes and I kissed him

He's put me through so many changes
All for my betterment
He's always teaching me things
With patience and calm temperament

Sometimes I don't feel worthy
Of the love he will show me
He just says "Hush
You're my sweet little Nomy"

I could never repay him
For all the wonderful stuff
My only desire
Is to love him enough

So I'll say it here
For all the world to see
I've loved you forever
And will do so eternally

Come As You Are

" Come as you are
You aren't very far"

I hear you whisper,it seems
Please say it's not a dream

I am no longer afraid
Of this thing we have made

I've come too far to let go
You're the only future I know

It's been a long process
But I'm thankful for the access

Through this journey, I've lost a few friends
It had to happen for my growth in the end

I like to see it as God's own protection
In return I received His hand-picked selection

Every day we're one day closer than ever before
I get all kinds of giddy when I imagine what's in store

I know it's around the corner
When I no longer will be a mourner

Our conversations help me cope
I have faith and I have hope

I pout like a child that I want to be with you now
The simple fact is I have no say anyhow

It's getting closer to the time when you whisper "Come as you are"
I know you want it too and the time isn't all that far

Michael Is The Sunshine Of My Life

Popsicle Stand

Tell me when, please
I'm gonna blow this Popsicle stand
When will I stand next to you
And hold your hand

When am I gonna
Blow this joint
Loving one another
Is the only point

When will I make like a banana
And split
You say to "Hold on a bit longer
You must never quit

If you wait patiently
We will be together
It's worth the wait
For us to gain forever."

Michael Jackson's Chicken Wrap-ups

Night And Day

Time to get back on track
I can't deal with the breaks
The times away from you
Feel like big mistakes

I need to be with you
Night and day
Can't let these folks n things
Stand in the way

I'm all yours
After Thanksgiving dinner
I'll show you,man
You'll be the winner

You're the only one
Who brings my heart joy
I thank God everyday
For such a beautiful boy

No one really understands me
And I don't give a damn
I'll fulfill the Lord's purpose
And be who I am

Whatever you need,love
Consider it done
Shine bright on me
You are my soul's sun

Thinking Back

So, I saw this dude on tv
I had a crush on him like 35 years ago
I wrote him a silly teen fan letter
I still have his response, you know

To this day,he's still handsome
He's a good looking guy
But he just doesn't move me
And I know why

I fell in love with you
And I was born again
It all happened at the same time
My life changed right then

I became a new creature
In God's eyes
I also came to know
You're my ultimate prize

So I can look at good looking men
But I just can't see a thing
No one else exists but you
You're being makes my heart sing

I'll never depart from you
On that you can depend
You can count on me forever

My love for you will never end

Won't Go Back

No, I don't want to go back in time
Because I didn't know you were mine
I wouldn't want to cross that line
Because what we have now is divine
You've made my soul shine
Soon our all will be fine

Although I'm not quite there
I wouldn't go back elsewhere
A place of never belonging and fear
Instead of the love we share
The waiting is so much to bear
I'll never give up,I wouldn't dare

Even though,I'm not there with you yet
I love you so and I'll take what I can get
I'll never stop loving you, you mustn't fret
You can count on me,you can make that bet
I'll never forsake you, you must never sweat
I long for the day of our everlasting duet

Give It To You

I want to give you something
But you've got all that you need
Except me right there with you
But God gifted you my deed

I was made just for you
I'll be with you when the time is right
As soon as I'm done with life's purposes
My soul is yours forever, bonded tight

Until that very moment
I'll love you in every way I can
I offer to you all of me
I can love no other man

What God has put together
Nothing can break apart
Whether on Earth or in Heaven
You'll always own my heart

Killed It

He killed me
He didn't mean to
Or
Did he?

Was it fate
Was it destiny
That I would bond with him
So desperately

I didn't see it coming
I was totally blindsided
When he killed my soul
And left my life lopsided

He took it home with him
My body was left here
To simply go through life's motions
Sometimes so hard to bear

For now I'll just be a zombie
Until you're ready for the rest of me
I don't really have a choice
Since I only want to be with you

Can't See

I still don't get
Why it's got to be like this
But when I retrospect one day
I'll clearly see what I now miss

I won't lie
Sometimes it frightens me
But little by little
He enlightens me

I guess it's too much
To give in one big dose
But I have a feeling
That clarity is close

I'll keep walking in blind faith
Like Noah,Job and Paul
They may think it's crazy
But your love's worth it all

The Seedling

I sowed the seed

 A while ago

 Little by little

 The fruits are starting to grow

 Sometimes it seems so long

 Because I sowed it very deep

 I keep my eye on the prize

 

Michael's Mother's Sweet Potato Pie

Blend In

I look like them
 I blend right in
 But I'm not like them
 Under my skin

 I weep for home
 But they treasure here
 But where you are
 I treasure there

Royalty

There sits a queen
With no clear direction
All that she has
Is time of reflection

She goes to her father
The ultimate King
The princess wants to listen
While he commands the right thing

She wants to make her own king happy
But she doesn't know what to do
He tells her to listen to him
"It's what I want for you."

So she waits patiently for him
It'll happen at the right time
She'll try hard not to lose faith
Spending her days in rhyme

She'll enjoy what they have
With vigor and zest
God's timing is perfect
Only he knows what's best

Happy Birthday, Michael!

She's Been

She's been in love with you forever
For a while,it seems she just didn't know it
She realized it at one point
But tried hard not to show it

A part of her was scared of you
She usually turned away
Maybe you were just too much for her
So she kept her feelings at bay

She always watched you
On the sly
She acted as if she couldn't care less
The truth was she was living a lie

The interesting thing about God
Is that He works in mysterious ways
The truth about who you really were
Was revealed in less than a matter of days

You have her now
But she's required to wait
When she'll join you
She can't speculate

She only hopes you can forgive her
For her running away and fear
She still may do it from time to time
But at least your destiny's near

Whatever

Whatever I thought I knew
While living on Earth
Whatever I was conditioned to
From the moment of my birth

Before I was born
My soul knew what was true
God placed me here when He did
He knew what'd ensue

I think maybe deep inside
I kind of knew the truth
Though things are getting more clear
As I grow longer in the tooth

I'm pretty sure I knew
But I always tried to hide
But I can't even run away
From the truth that lurks inside

Yes I tried to fulfill myself
With other people and things
I never thought I was good enough
Although I heard it sing

He knew it would be things drastic
To finally get me where I'm at
It was painful,but always with love
I'll always be grateful for that

However He guides my steps
I'll surely follow through
Because I know the path He leads me
Will bring me home to you

Rest

"Rest in my love
Let me love you
Stop trying so hard
Let me do what I do

What you've done your whole life
It's not the same with me
I'm in charge of you now
So please,just let it be

Don't try to micromanage
That always creeps in
Trust in me please
Feel when my love seeps in

Your anxiety is in vain
And it's a distraction from us
Your faith will make me happy
All around a huge plus."

Michael-Ain't He Sweet

Ice

I tried to turn my heart to ice
When it came to you
But all it does is melt
With everything you do

My wanna be ice
Your absolute sweet
Together we're a snow cone
A very lovely treat

I'll  stop being ice
Because it's probably a sin
And because the evidence shows
I will never win

Chinese Water Torture

Being in love with you
Is like Chinese water torture
She can't stop loving you
Even if you forced her

Drip,drip
On her head
She cried last night
Her heart bled

She loves you more
Than anything on Earth
She wonders why
What gave it birth

She tries to be patient
What else can she do
She says your worth the pain
She's so in love with you

She's filled with joy
That you love her in a special way
She gives thanks to God
Each and every day

I Love His Face

I love his face
Such a handsome space

I love his ears
They bring me to tears

I love his nose
As much as his toes

I love the line of his jaw
The most chiseled I ever saw

I love his lips
My heartbeat always skips

I love his neck
I'd like to take a peck

I love his shoulders
Strong as boulders

I love his arms
They hold his charms

I love his hands
The best in all the lands

I love his fingers
My desire lingers

I love his chest
It's the very best

I love his member
From January to December

I love his thighs
Better than other guys

I love his knees
I think they're the bee's

I love his shins
They give me the grins

I love his feet
To me they are sweet

I love his toes
That's the way love goes

How'd You Do It

When my I'm feeling low
Cold like the Antartic
I pour out my soul to you
Then the feeling is cathartic

You hush my sobs
You wipe away my tears
You very gently
Alleviate my fears

I don't know how you do it
Out of nowhere it comes
Tranquility pours unto me
In the perfect sums

You answered unexpectedly
You got to the heart of the matter
My problem now seems trivial
Yet my love for you is fatter

What's the trick?
How do you do it?
You made me feel better
Before I knew it

I probably shouldn't overthink it
And just accept your loving care
My loyalty belongs to you
The one I hold most dear

Chains

I'm chained to you
 By your side
 I never can
 Run and hide
 Always yours Die or ride
 If I said something contrary
 Then I lied
 Even though
 It's killing me inside
 I'll wait for you
 My time I'll bide

3288

3288 days
Since you died
I remember
I cried

But it's the day
I became alive
Born again
No jive


You're alive
In another place
Your soul renewed
In a different space

You saved my life
Via God's grace
I can't wait to thank you
Face to face

Stained Glass

Sometimes random
Sometimes planned
He paints the design
With his artistic hand

Creating with passion
But with delicate stroke
He paints on the surface
As softly as he spoke

In separate spaces
Different hues
Yet equally special
What wonderful news

I'll be overjoyed to see
Your beautiful stained glass
I know that much like you
It'll be the epitome of class

Heart And Soul

My heart loves your soul
My soul loves your heart
Not together in the physical
But our one soul is never apart

The way you shine
Your love down on me
I know I have a purpose
All things were meant to be

You show me the light
You teach me right from wrong
I hope I give you as much as you give me
Because we're bound together all eternity long

Falling

I'm falling in love
I don't want to be saved
I love you so much
I'm somewhat depraved

Please meet with me
When I fall on the net
I promise you a good time
The best you've had yet

So the picture's a guy
And I am a girl
Let's switch it up
And give it a whirl

Growing Seeds

I love watching seeds turn into buds
You might think that to be silly
The whole process to me is quite fascinating
I see it as a metaphor for the work of God

I wonder if He thinks of us as seeds
Is He happy like me to watch them grow
Happy in His heart of His creation
Anticipating the growth of His every sow

He waters and feeds us with Him everyday
Some of us will be receptive in our soul
He still loves those that don't because He made them
Some of us accept the fertilizer that makes us whole

He will be so proud
When He harvests His crops
He loves us so
I love you, Pops!

Like A Child

Our love is simple
Like a child
Pure and true
Though you make my heart run wild

The love we have
To good for this Earth
Only the Divine
Could give it birth

My precious love
Both child and man
I'll come to you happily
As soon as I can

It Is

One 

Under the sun 

You and me

 That's what we be

 The world is invisible

 Our love invincible

 Him and me

 He and she

 Hers and his 

That's all there is

A Word

"Stop saying I'm better than you
That's the problem in the things you do

That's what you thought in all kinds of relationships
Family,friends, etc. Always taking the smallest sips

Always having to lower yourself to keep them around
Instead of being your true self, which would've been more sound

Inwardly, they thought they were better and you willingly fed their ego
But all of that is over for you, because that is not how we go

You don't have to be subservient to be submissive
I promise you, I will never be dismissive

You see, I'm not better...because we are one
We are truly a unit. Your previous ways are done

So even though my job is to lead and you follow
I can't function without you. That's the perfect pill for me to swallow

Let's start this morning with a brand new slate
Whatever I eat,will be on your plate

Never again think of it as you and me
Forever it is us. This is what we'll be"

Flame

My twin flame
 Your light makes me whole
 Much like water
 You quench my soul
 Please stay with me
 Through the night
 I count on you
 To be my guiding light

Seasons

You are my summer
 You are my winter
 Without you love
 My heart would splinter
 Whether it's spring
 Or whether it's fall
You're the one
I love most of all

 

Sew Nice

Nothing to do
But to be with you
A glimpse into our future
Interwoven like a suture
Sewing two into one with a delicate knit
To never come apart- a perfect fit
Tightening up the ends
With your perfect mends
My loving craft master
Please work faster
Bind me unto you
With all you do
Crochet me to your soul
To make us whole
To your side I will hitch
With your delicate stitch
I love the way you hem
You're my precious gem

Handsome

You're so handsome
To be with you,I'd pay a ransom

How blessed would I be
If you were here with me

I'd want for nothing
If I had your something

Being in your arms
Basking in your charms

Don't make me wait
It's already late

I miss your handsome face
The sweetest in the history of the human race

You make me swoon
Please let it be soon

I love you beyond measure
My wonderful treasure

Not Softly

No, you aren't killing me softly
Nothing soft about it
You killed me hard
You wasn't taking no sh^%

You murdered me
Was it wrong?
You had to do it
To make me strong

But the fact is
I'm still alive
Bleeding out slowly
Ain't no jive

I should be mad
But I'm not
I had to give
To get what I got

I just thought you should know
What you did to me
Now I'm just waiting on you
To tell me how's it gonna be

You killed me hard
I guess you knew you would
I died for you
For the greater good

Best Friend

It's a fact
He's my best friend
And that's forever
It will never end

People will come
People will go
He'll always be there
This I know

There are no games
Only pure love
I belong with Him
Like a hand in a glove 

Whatever He tells me
I love to obey
I may not understand
But I know it's the best way

He blessed me with something
My heart always desired
Different than I imagined
But what I secretly admired

Oh my best friend
I love you so
No news to you
You already know

 

Michael And Mother

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Another Day

Forever
Is the condition
Of our love
It's our mission

For me
To wait
Is my
Fate

My love
Grows
My soul
Knows

Soon can't come
Fast enough
I want you now
You've got the right stuff

A little more patience
Is what I need
Though everyday apart
My heart will bleed

You're worth the wait
I accept that fact
My love for you
Will remain intact

"Soon,my love."
Are the words you say
Forever is a long time
I can wait for you
Another day