I'm starting to remember things Like a slow unveiling Like a ship in unsure waters Starting to see where she's sailing I remember the peace with God and angels A place of unlimited love A feeling of always belonging As peaceful as a dove Then one day, I don't know why My spirit came down to Earth I don't remember the details But that was the day of my birth Landing in a place of conditional love All depending on someone's mood Some days they are accepting Other days they are quite rude Still equipped with my gentle spirit The world made an effort to dim my light At points I lost my way Trying to fit into this world right In constant companion of users and abusers I suppose dishing out what they, themselves took Praying to God to help me out For all that pain, I've been left shook People don't generally put other's needs above theirs I suppose that's the nature of man Then I started to remember That it's only God who can The more I come back to my original spirit I lose people left and right I suppose they mostly think I'm strange But I hope I'm displaying God's light One great thing that happened I found one who loves me unconditionally Between he and God's personal promise I know one day I'll be back home permanently
These are my poems,from my heart. Some are to God,some are to my Bronze Adonis ,some are just for fun and in general (Songs to match the mood of the poem...or is it the other way around? hmmm...)
Sunday, March 29, 2020
Remembering Where I Came From
Sunday, March 15, 2020
Sore From Living
I'm sore from living
But not ready for dying
Even though I'm tired
And everyday I'm crying
I know I have to do
What God says is His will
I'll do it all for Him
Though it's hard to swallow that pill
I know there's light at the end of the tunnel
But sometimes the journey seems so slow
I'll just keep on keeping on
Til I find the end of my rainbow
But not ready for dying
Even though I'm tired
And everyday I'm crying
I know I have to do
What God says is His will
I'll do it all for Him
Though it's hard to swallow that pill
I know there's light at the end of the tunnel
But sometimes the journey seems so slow
I'll just keep on keeping on
Til I find the end of my rainbow
Friday, February 28, 2020
I Can't Run
I can't run
No matter how I try
Whenever I attempt it
I just break down and cry
I'm so afraid
Of getting hurt
Being used like the others
Being treated like dirt
I can't live without you
And that is just a fact
I keep on asking God
He directs me how to act
I don't understand this thing
I never saw it coming
But since He told me that it's mine
I guess I'll be succumbing
You and I will come together
When God says the time is right
Until then I'll love you from afar
And wait for the Paradise flight
No matter how I try
Whenever I attempt it
I just break down and cry
I'm so afraid
Of getting hurt
Being used like the others
Being treated like dirt
I can't live without you
And that is just a fact
I keep on asking God
He directs me how to act
I don't understand this thing
I never saw it coming
But since He told me that it's mine
I guess I'll be succumbing
You and I will come together
When God says the time is right
Until then I'll love you from afar
And wait for the Paradise flight
Monday, February 24, 2020
Thursday, February 06, 2020
My Love For You
My love for you is pure No matter what I have to endure It's one thing that's for sure It's one thing without a cure The days are cold My longing, bold My love for you, gold It never gets old I hope you take note of my loyalty When eternal life is reality I'll show my love flamboyantly Because in my spirit, you're my royalty
Tuesday, January 07, 2020
His Face
His face,his face
The most beautiful I've seen
In the human race
His mind,his mind
Very intelligent
One of a kind
His charms,his charms
So sweet to me
I want to be in his arms
His soul,his soul
I'm part of his
I make him whole
His spirit,his spirit
Filled with God
So I don't fear it
The best, the best
I love you so
I am blessed
The most beautiful I've seen
In the human race
His mind,his mind
Very intelligent
One of a kind
His charms,his charms
So sweet to me
I want to be in his arms
His soul,his soul
I'm part of his
I make him whole
His spirit,his spirit
Filled with God
So I don't fear it
The best, the best
I love you so
I am blessed
Tuesday, December 31, 2019
Thank U God 4 This Year
For getting me thru another year
Yes, I did it with You
Tho I shed many a tear
I know that I'm here
For your purpose alone
It made things better
Once it was known
It's only meant to be known
By the other person, You and me
I don't fully understand it
But your will is good enough for me
I know you also want me to show love
In any situation I can try
Sometimes it's just so hard
When people make me wanna cry
For this new year coming
I'm living just for You
I'm resting in your promise to me
And You'll be overjoyed when You do
Saturday, December 14, 2019
Thank You, Sam Cooke
His voice makes me feel better
When I'm not feeling right
It helps soothe me
When I feel plight
Thank you God
For his birth
And the music he left
When he left the Earth
He was here before my time
But that's alright with me
He helps me in the here and now
Although his spirit is now free
Whether with the Soul Stirrers
Or singing by himself
You should check him out
Don't leave him on the shelf
I know what you're thinking
"She loves so and so"
But if you actually really knew me
You'd know I'm deeper than what shows
Thank you,Sam Cooke
I send that to where you dwell in peace
Thank you for lifting my spirits
May your eternal blessings never cease
When I'm not feeling right
It helps soothe me
When I feel plight
Thank you God
For his birth
And the music he left
When he left the Earth
He was here before my time
But that's alright with me
He helps me in the here and now
Although his spirit is now free
Whether with the Soul Stirrers
Or singing by himself
You should check him out
Don't leave him on the shelf
I know what you're thinking
"She loves so and so"
But if you actually really knew me
You'd know I'm deeper than what shows
Thank you,Sam Cooke
I send that to where you dwell in peace
Thank you for lifting my spirits
May your eternal blessings never cease
Friday, December 13, 2019
Alone With You
I want to be alone with you I don't just mean no one else around I mean really all alone with you Not even with any sound I want you all to myself I know that it sounds selfish No one but you and me That would be my wish No sounds of people or creatures No TV, Internet, or phone No low buzzing of appliances Just you and me alone No sounds of people or cars passing by Not a thing upon the wall Nothing to distract from you I just want you, that's all My beautiful, handsome man When will this come true My soul cries with longing wails To be all alone with you
Friday, December 06, 2019
Saturday, November 23, 2019
You're The Reason
You're the reason
I'm hanging on
Because of you
I try to be strong
You're the only one
Who's my true friend
I know your love
Will never end
You're the most
Wonderful man
I know we'll be together
When God says we can
I want you so badly
But you're over there
We talk every day
I'm blessed that you care
We'll continue to bond
Night and day
And until our time
I'll pine my life away
I'm hanging on
Because of you
I try to be strong
You're the only one
Who's my true friend
I know your love
Will never end
You're the most
Wonderful man
I know we'll be together
When God says we can
I want you so badly
But you're over there
We talk every day
I'm blessed that you care
We'll continue to bond
Night and day
And until our time
I'll pine my life away
Monday, October 14, 2019
More Than Eye Candy
You are more than eye candy
You're a triple layer black forest cake
You are a sight to behold
A masterpiece for my own sake
You're more than outer beauty
Your beauty is within,as well
I'm proud to be a part of you
Two souls encased in one shell
Your spirit lasts forever
But man,that handsome look
Every time I see your face
The core of me is shook
You're a triple layer black forest cake
You are a sight to behold
A masterpiece for my own sake
You're more than outer beauty
Your beauty is within,as well
I'm proud to be a part of you
Two souls encased in one shell
Your spirit lasts forever
But man,that handsome look
Every time I see your face
The core of me is shook
Loving Him
Requires no part
It's automatic
It comes from the heart
Loving him
Is ingrained in my soul
If I didn't love him
I wouldn't be whole
Is there something else for me
Some specific chore
Or is it really just to love him
And nothing more
I try to do other things
But they ultimately fail
Only the loving of him
Is the one thing that won't bail
I guess that's the answer
That's where it's at
It's not what I thought life would be
But in the end,that's that
Tuesday, October 08, 2019
Cognitive Dissonance
An experience of cognitive dissonance
As one living here on Earth
Being told of how it is
From the very moment of birth
Yet something deep inside
Told me this can't be completely true
I think that I have always known
There was something I needed to do
I've always felt this pull
To the place I really belong
But to leave before it's time
I guess that would really be wrong
I think that life right here
Is sort of a finishing school
The knowledge that you learn here
Is such an invaluable tool
There's only two ways to go
Either dishing out love or pain
But real love is just sacrifice
You'll have to hurt to gain
I remember when I realized
What wasn't really real
My love made his own sacrifice
So now I know the deal
Home is really calling me
Getting stronger everyday
To the place where love is waiting for me
That sure will be a good day
Until that day arrives
I'll work humbly on my mission
Getting back to that place of love
Is my biggest ambition
As one living here on Earth
Being told of how it is
From the very moment of birth
Yet something deep inside
Told me this can't be completely true
I think that I have always known
There was something I needed to do
I've always felt this pull
To the place I really belong
But to leave before it's time
I guess that would really be wrong
I think that life right here
Is sort of a finishing school
The knowledge that you learn here
Is such an invaluable tool
There's only two ways to go
Either dishing out love or pain
But real love is just sacrifice
You'll have to hurt to gain
I remember when I realized
What wasn't really real
My love made his own sacrifice
So now I know the deal
Home is really calling me
Getting stronger everyday
To the place where love is waiting for me
That sure will be a good day
Until that day arrives
I'll work humbly on my mission
Getting back to that place of love
Is my biggest ambition
Sunday, September 29, 2019
What Would I Do
Don't know what I'd do
If I couldn't drink from your cup
I wouldn't know which way was down
Or would I know which way is up
You are always there for me
Even if my moods be dippin'
I can always count on you
Even when I be trippin'
You never let me down
If my emotions are strong or faint
How on earth do you put up with me
You have a patience of a saint!
If I couldn't drink from your cup
I wouldn't know which way was down
Or would I know which way is up
You are always there for me
Even if my moods be dippin'
I can always count on you
Even when I be trippin'
You never let me down
If my emotions are strong or faint
How on earth do you put up with me
You have a patience of a saint!
Thursday, September 26, 2019
My Home
Home is where my heart is
And that's anywhere with you
Let's stay at home together
And see what we can do
Let's stay at home
And see what you can find
I guarantee it baby
You'll find peace of mind
If I'm not at our home
I just can't exist
Let's make up for lost time
I'll give you all you ever missed
I'm on my way baby
Don't know how long it will take
But I promise when I get there
Compensation is what I'll make
I need to get on home
Because that's where all the love is
Just your and I together
Forever hers and his
And that's anywhere with you
Let's stay at home together
And see what we can do
Let's stay at home
And see what you can find
I guarantee it baby
You'll find peace of mind
If I'm not at our home
I just can't exist
Let's make up for lost time
I'll give you all you ever missed
I'm on my way baby
Don't know how long it will take
But I promise when I get there
Compensation is what I'll make
I need to get on home
Because that's where all the love is
Just your and I together
Forever hers and his
Thursday, September 19, 2019
I Get It Now
OK,I get it now
I know I said that before
But this time I really mean it
I really know the score
You were right, as usual
I don't know why I'm so hardheaded
But now I know beyond a doubt
The truth permanently embedded
Next time I try to do things on my own
Please just slap me upside the head
I'll be submissive unto you
I'll let you lead and head
I know I said that before
But this time I really mean it
I really know the score
You were right, as usual
I don't know why I'm so hardheaded
But now I know beyond a doubt
The truth permanently embedded
Next time I try to do things on my own
Please just slap me upside the head
I'll be submissive unto you
I'll let you lead and head
Tuesday, September 17, 2019
I Admire People....
I admire people
That go out and make a change
More than keyboard warriors
With a very limited range
I admire people
Who go out and get their hands dirty
Not just talking the talk
And next minute being flirty
I admire people
Who truly love,not for attention
The ones who do some action
Not for an honorable mention
I admire people
Doing good,not for a photo-op
Not just spewing rhetoric
That has got to stop
I admire people
Who do good things from their heart
Do your good deeds in secret
That would be a good start
That go out and make a change
More than keyboard warriors
With a very limited range
I admire people
Who go out and get their hands dirty
Not just talking the talk
And next minute being flirty
I admire people
Who truly love,not for attention
The ones who do some action
Not for an honorable mention
I admire people
Doing good,not for a photo-op
Not just spewing rhetoric
That has got to stop
I admire people
Who do good things from their heart
Do your good deeds in secret
That would be a good start
Wednesday, September 11, 2019
If My Heart Had A Mouth
If my heart had a mouth
It would tell you how I feel
It would let you know my truth
And how I feel for real
But for some unknown reason
My heart is remaining silent
It's fighting to come out
It's getting very violent
I can't figure it out
I don't know why it's going on
But my heart is aching to tell you
Before it's too far gone
I hope your heart is telepathic
And can hear what mine has to say
Because maybe when it finally gets out
The aching pain will go away
It would tell you how I feel
It would let you know my truth
And how I feel for real
But for some unknown reason
My heart is remaining silent
It's fighting to come out
It's getting very violent
I can't figure it out
I don't know why it's going on
But my heart is aching to tell you
Before it's too far gone
I hope your heart is telepathic
And can hear what mine has to say
Because maybe when it finally gets out
The aching pain will go away
Speak With You
I have this urgent need
To really speak with you
If I cannot do it
I don't know what I'll do
I can't really tell you
What I need to say
But I need for this to happen
On this very day
It's tugging at my heart
It's on the tip of my tongue
I feel I'm going crazy
It's making me high strung
I really need to see you
It's important that you know
I know when I see you in the flesh
My words and emotions will flow
Please, Lord, I need to do this
And only You know why
If I don't get to speak with him
This whole day I will cry
To really speak with you
If I cannot do it
I don't know what I'll do
I can't really tell you
What I need to say
But I need for this to happen
On this very day
It's tugging at my heart
It's on the tip of my tongue
I feel I'm going crazy
It's making me high strung
I really need to see you
It's important that you know
I know when I see you in the flesh
My words and emotions will flow
Please, Lord, I need to do this
And only You know why
If I don't get to speak with him
This whole day I will cry
Friday, September 06, 2019
After What You Did
After what you did to me
I'll never be the same
I didn't see it coming
But still there you came
You stole my soul away from me
You also stole my heart
You said that they belonged to you
And we'll never part
There's times I try to turn away
Because the love's so hard to take
I think that you're too good for me
But you say the bond won't break
I come to God in prayer
And ask if this is right
He tells me yes over and over
Every day and night
So what's a girl to do
But surrender herself to you
But there's just one thing I need to know
What now exactly should I do?
I'll never be the same
I didn't see it coming
But still there you came
You stole my soul away from me
You also stole my heart
You said that they belonged to you
And we'll never part
There's times I try to turn away
Because the love's so hard to take
I think that you're too good for me
But you say the bond won't break
I come to God in prayer
And ask if this is right
He tells me yes over and over
Every day and night
So what's a girl to do
But surrender herself to you
But there's just one thing I need to know
What now exactly should I do?
Friday, August 23, 2019
Thursday, August 15, 2019
I Never Knew
My mind thought I was in love before
My heart thought the same thing ,too
But my soul never knew what true love was
And then along came you
I never knew there was a difference
Until God showed me the way
When He presented you to me
I finally knew real love that day
Our love for each other is long-suffering
It's patient and it's kind
It's the kind of love I've dreamed of
That I never thought I'd find
Our love is our eternal reward
Born of personal sacrifice
When we finally join one another
It's anointed to be so nice
My heart thought the same thing ,too
But my soul never knew what true love was
And then along came you
I never knew there was a difference
Until God showed me the way
When He presented you to me
I finally knew real love that day
Our love for each other is long-suffering
It's patient and it's kind
It's the kind of love I've dreamed of
That I never thought I'd find
Our love is our eternal reward
Born of personal sacrifice
When we finally join one another
It's anointed to be so nice
Tuesday, July 30, 2019
Tuesday Afternoon
Here I am
Another Tuesday afternoon
Will these frustrations
End anytime soon
I knew I was different
Ever since I was born
When the angels escorted my
One sunny,Sunday morn
I tried my whole life
To always fit in
At times it worked
But the truth remained within
When given an assignment
That you would prefer not
You must do it anyway
It's from God and what you've got
I won't give up
Although it's so hard
I don't even understand it
Yet I won't disregard
Please help me get through
I'm having one of those days
Looking forward to the promise
Of those heavenly rays
Another Tuesday afternoon
Will these frustrations
End anytime soon
I knew I was different
Ever since I was born
When the angels escorted my
One sunny,Sunday morn
I tried my whole life
To always fit in
At times it worked
But the truth remained within
When given an assignment
That you would prefer not
You must do it anyway
It's from God and what you've got
I won't give up
Although it's so hard
I don't even understand it
Yet I won't disregard
Please help me get through
I'm having one of those days
Looking forward to the promise
Of those heavenly rays
Thursday, July 18, 2019
Brown Sugar
I want to taste your brown sugar
Brotha, it's so sweet
I need some of that
Delectable yummy treat
I can just taste it now
On my waiting lips
Just the thought of it
Gives me gyrating hips
When you bring that sugar
To my mouth
I think of things
Way down south
Please help me, baby
My blood sugar is low
Please give it to me
And don't be slow
I'm gonna cry
If I can't get a taste
Don't let these desires
Of mine go to waste
Everyone has sugar
But yours is the only one for me
Give it to me good,baby
On the count of 1,2,3...
Brotha, it's so sweet
I need some of that
Delectable yummy treat
I can just taste it now
On my waiting lips
Just the thought of it
Gives me gyrating hips
When you bring that sugar
To my mouth
I think of things
Way down south
Please help me, baby
My blood sugar is low
Please give it to me
And don't be slow
I'm gonna cry
If I can't get a taste
Don't let these desires
Of mine go to waste
Everyone has sugar
But yours is the only one for me
Give it to me good,baby
On the count of 1,2,3...
Tuesday, July 02, 2019
For Him
Loving you is a pleasure
Your love is my own treasure
I love you beyond measure
You and I are meant to be
You're the only one for me
I will love you endlessly
I don't care what the say
I don't care if they think I'm cray
My love grows stronger everyday
There's something I must do
And no, it's nothing new
Just have to say honey I love you
Your love is my own treasure
I love you beyond measure
You and I are meant to be
You're the only one for me
I will love you endlessly
I don't care what the say
I don't care if they think I'm cray
My love grows stronger everyday
There's something I must do
And no, it's nothing new
Just have to say honey I love you
Monday, July 01, 2019
You Are What You Eat
"You are what you eat."
That's what he said to me
"Not just your body, also your mind."
He said it so very eloquently
"I want you to watch
The things that you eat
Cut back on the salt
And easy on the sweets
Chill with the booze
It won't get you anywhere
Let me do it with you
I'll take you there
Then they're those things
That you watch and read
And the social media
They plant a bad seed
I see you get confused
With all the information you take in
None of it is fruitful
Just turn to me, I'll help you win
You are what you eat
And it affects me too
Remember we are one
Just me and you."
That's what he said to me
"Not just your body, also your mind."
He said it so very eloquently
"I want you to watch
The things that you eat
Cut back on the salt
And easy on the sweets
Chill with the booze
It won't get you anywhere
Let me do it with you
I'll take you there
Then they're those things
That you watch and read
And the social media
They plant a bad seed
I see you get confused
With all the information you take in
None of it is fruitful
Just turn to me, I'll help you win
You are what you eat
And it affects me too
Remember we are one
Just me and you."
Wednesday, June 19, 2019
Wednesday, June 12, 2019
Thank God
I thank God
For your handsome face
The most beautiful one
In the human race
I thank God
For your million dollar smile
Keeps my heart racing
Mile after mile
I thank God
For your wit
Every time
My soul you hit
I thank God
For your brains
When you teach me
Your knowledge rains
I thank God
For who you are
With you I'm blessed
The best by far
For your handsome face
The most beautiful one
In the human race
I thank God
For your million dollar smile
Keeps my heart racing
Mile after mile
I thank God
For your wit
Every time
My soul you hit
I thank God
For your brains
When you teach me
Your knowledge rains
I thank God
For who you are
With you I'm blessed
The best by far
Thursday, May 30, 2019
Sweet And Tender
There's no one like you
So sweet and tender
You've captivated my spirit
I'm in sweet surrender
I feel safe
As your captive bird
Whatever you need
Just say the word
I don't care
If we're near are far
We'll be together'
Wherever you are
When we make love
I know it's true
There's no one else
Just me and you
When I forget your past
And you forget mine
I feel I'm in heaven
And our love is divine
Hiding our love
Is not an easy task
But in God's time
Our love will bask
So sweet and tender
You've captivated my spirit
I'm in sweet surrender
I feel safe
As your captive bird
Whatever you need
Just say the word
I don't care
If we're near are far
We'll be together'
Wherever you are
When we make love
I know it's true
There's no one else
Just me and you
When I forget your past
And you forget mine
I feel I'm in heaven
And our love is divine
Hiding our love
Is not an easy task
But in God's time
Our love will bask
Tuesday, May 21, 2019
I'm Jealous
I'm a little jealous
I hate to admit it
But it's so true
There, I've said it
I've been jealous
Of all in your life
When I overthink it
It cuts like a knife
I'm jealous of the men and women
The girls and boys
Even inanimate things
Such as furniture and toys
I'm jealous of your brothers
I'm jealous of your sisters
I'm jealous of your saliva
And even of your blisters
I'm jealous of your children
I'm jealous of your father and mother
I'm jealous of your relatives and friends
And the multitude of others
I'm jealous of your toothbrush
Your undies and your combs
I'm jealous of your floor
I'm jealous of your homes
Anything or one that's touched you
There is irrational jealousy
I guess that makes me selfish
I want you all for me
I hate to admit it
But it's so true
There, I've said it
I've been jealous
Of all in your life
When I overthink it
It cuts like a knife
I'm jealous of the men and women
The girls and boys
Even inanimate things
Such as furniture and toys
I'm jealous of your brothers
I'm jealous of your sisters
I'm jealous of your saliva
And even of your blisters
I'm jealous of your children
I'm jealous of your father and mother
I'm jealous of your relatives and friends
And the multitude of others
I'm jealous of your toothbrush
Your undies and your combs
I'm jealous of your floor
I'm jealous of your homes
Anything or one that's touched you
There is irrational jealousy
I guess that makes me selfish
I want you all for me
Tuesday, May 07, 2019
I Can't Stop
I can't stop other women from wanting you
I know that to be a fact
I can't control what they think or do
I can only control how I act
I ain't gonna lie
It hurts me in my heart
When they try to claim you
They've done it from the start
But I guess it's like you told me
I heard you loud and clear
They might try to hold onto you
But your love they cannot steer
It's like you said before
I was made for you
What God has put together
Won't be undone whatever they do
I know that to be a fact
I can't control what they think or do
I can only control how I act
I ain't gonna lie
It hurts me in my heart
When they try to claim you
They've done it from the start
But I guess it's like you told me
I heard you loud and clear
They might try to hold onto you
But your love they cannot steer
It's like you said before
I was made for you
What God has put together
Won't be undone whatever they do
Sunday, May 05, 2019
I Accept
I accept what which Was given to me It's what is mine It's meant to be It's supernatural So it might sound crazy I need to nurture this And not be lazy Please reveal more to me Is my prayer today I desire to do it right Tell me what to do and say I love this purpose It's why I exist It will never end Because of love it consists
Thursday, May 02, 2019
How Many
How many times can my heart be broken
How long can I live with sorrows unspoken
How many things can I wish I had
How many times can I wake up sad
How many times can I cry myself to sleep
How can I cope when my thinking is too deep
How many times can I feel rejected
How many times must my soul feel dejected
How many times can I look at you
And you assure me I won't always be blue
How many times will you build me up
And gently remind me, I'm your sweet buttercup
How many times will you tell me you love me
When will I not forget,that we're meant to be
I want you to know, I think you've got the right stuff
But it's more important you know that your love is enough
How long can I live with sorrows unspoken
How many things can I wish I had
How many times can I wake up sad
How many times can I cry myself to sleep
How can I cope when my thinking is too deep
How many times can I feel rejected
How many times must my soul feel dejected
How many times can I look at you
And you assure me I won't always be blue
How many times will you build me up
And gently remind me, I'm your sweet buttercup
How many times will you tell me you love me
When will I not forget,that we're meant to be
I want you to know, I think you've got the right stuff
But it's more important you know that your love is enough
Monday, April 22, 2019
If ...
Look, I know I need you now
But I just realized I needed you then
How different my life could have been
If I'd have known you way back when
Yes, I agree, in an eternal way
We've always known each other
But if only you could have rescued me then
I wouldn't have been drowned or smothered
I suppose I would have just gotten in the way
Of the purpose that was ordained for you
It would have been selfish of me
From distracting you from what you had to do
I know,that speaking for myself
Nothing turned out like I thought it would
But something that I've come to learn
Is that all works out as it should
I'm glad we're back together
Although we are far apart
One day it won't be an issue
We'll soon be one, flesh and heart
But I just realized I needed you then
How different my life could have been
If I'd have known you way back when
Yes, I agree, in an eternal way
We've always known each other
But if only you could have rescued me then
I wouldn't have been drowned or smothered
I suppose I would have just gotten in the way
Of the purpose that was ordained for you
It would have been selfish of me
From distracting you from what you had to do
I know,that speaking for myself
Nothing turned out like I thought it would
But something that I've come to learn
Is that all works out as it should
I'm glad we're back together
Although we are far apart
One day it won't be an issue
We'll soon be one, flesh and heart
Knowledge
It's just that there's those people
Who live for the status quo
It's just not who I am
I want to learn and grow
I want to gain some knowledge
Birth it from its womb
I want to uncover hidden secrets
Buried within its tomb
I just so hunger and thirst
For every new little fact
The more knowledge I receive
The more useful I can act
The things that I have learned
Have been invaluable to me
Some prefer their comfort zone
They'd rather be blind than see
I'm not here to judge them
They're where they're predestined to be
All I ask is the same from them
To not judge and just love me
Who live for the status quo
It's just not who I am
I want to learn and grow
I want to gain some knowledge
Birth it from its womb
I want to uncover hidden secrets
Buried within its tomb
I just so hunger and thirst
For every new little fact
The more knowledge I receive
The more useful I can act
The things that I have learned
Have been invaluable to me
Some prefer their comfort zone
They'd rather be blind than see
I'm not here to judge them
They're where they're predestined to be
All I ask is the same from them
To not judge and just love me
Wednesday, April 17, 2019
Sunday, April 14, 2019
One Day
Just spending time with you Is like a bandage to my soul For those moments in time I feel so whole Why cant it be this way Every second of the day I need this connection To always stay I guess it can't be that way Or this would be Paradise I guess it's not my time for that But you ensure me a lovely surprise I can't stop thinking about you You say that makes your spirit glad You want us to be happy with what we do have The more time I spend with you,the less I'll be sad Dear God,please help me hold on Sometimes it just seems so long If I have faith and persevere The day will come I'll hear his song
Thursday, April 11, 2019
I Feel You
I feel you when I'm awake
I feel you when I'm asleep
I feel you now,all the time
Because the love is deep
The love is so strong
It disregards time or space
I know that you and I are one
The only two of our own race
Time and time again
The truth was shown to me
Never did I have such peace
Then when I surrendered willingly
When you continue to do your part
And I continue to do mine
I know deep within our soul
We are blessed and will be fine
I feel you when I'm asleep
I feel you now,all the time
Because the love is deep
The love is so strong
It disregards time or space
I know that you and I are one
The only two of our own race
Time and time again
The truth was shown to me
Never did I have such peace
Then when I surrendered willingly
When you continue to do your part
And I continue to do mine
I know deep within our soul
We are blessed and will be fine
Saturday, March 30, 2019
I Asked God
I asked God
"Why did things turn out the way they did?
Why was true happiness hid?"
He answered
"You were my child before this Earth.
I knew you always,before your birth.
You must know, I wasn't wrong
You were set aside,all along
Through your experiences, whether bad or good
You were being molded, you did the best you could
I know you always loved me
You were as eager as you could be
Somewhere along the way, you stopped putting me first
For what the world had to offer, you developed a thirst
You wonder why your way didn't work out in the end
Just listen to me. I'll tell you my friend
You tried to do it without me and do it your own way
That will never work for you,,at the end of the day.
You tried to force a square peg into a hole that was round
But as you know now, that's not where happiness was found
I was there with you, through the mistakes that you made
I heard you each and every time you prayed
Then came the time where enough was enough
I had to remove you from all the wrong stuff
As your Father, I knew what I had to do
I knew the one thing, that would finally get to you
It's been a process, about a decade long
But it has made our bond so strong
I tell you what my will is, every single day
You resist a bit,as you don't understand my way
But you never give up- I'm proud of you
No matter how hard, you push on through
I made you a promise. It's just between you and Me
It will come to fruition. Just wait and see!
I know you have worries. I know you have doubt.
Just do as I say. Love is what I'm about. "
"Why did things turn out the way they did?
Why was true happiness hid?"
He answered
"You were my child before this Earth.
I knew you always,before your birth.
You must know, I wasn't wrong
You were set aside,all along
Through your experiences, whether bad or good
You were being molded, you did the best you could
I know you always loved me
You were as eager as you could be
Somewhere along the way, you stopped putting me first
For what the world had to offer, you developed a thirst
You wonder why your way didn't work out in the end
Just listen to me. I'll tell you my friend
You tried to do it without me and do it your own way
That will never work for you,,at the end of the day.
You tried to force a square peg into a hole that was round
But as you know now, that's not where happiness was found
I was there with you, through the mistakes that you made
I heard you each and every time you prayed
Then came the time where enough was enough
I had to remove you from all the wrong stuff
As your Father, I knew what I had to do
I knew the one thing, that would finally get to you
It's been a process, about a decade long
But it has made our bond so strong
I tell you what my will is, every single day
You resist a bit,as you don't understand my way
But you never give up- I'm proud of you
No matter how hard, you push on through
I made you a promise. It's just between you and Me
It will come to fruition. Just wait and see!
I know you have worries. I know you have doubt.
Just do as I say. Love is what I'm about. "
Friday, March 29, 2019
The Blessing
Wishing there were certain things I had
There's a couple things I'd like to get
Not having them makes me sad
I've been praying for years
But the answer is "no"
Or maybe "not yet"
Should I just let it go?
It then dawned on me suddenly
He rained the very best blessing on me
The fact that I get to be in love with you
Is the most beautiful blessing there could be
When I wake up in the morning
And before I go to bed
In between are loving thoughts of you
Constantly running through my head
So I conclude it is a fact
And Heaven knows it's true
If I have nothing else
I'm so blessed to love you
Friday, March 22, 2019
Turnaround
When we first came together
I was drawn to you
I just wanted to help you
With whatever I could do
I just wanted to care for you
To forever fill your cup
I'd finally found my other half
You showed me what was up
I wanted to silence the haters
Or anyone mean to you
It didn't quite turn out as planned
You showed me something new
I didn't know I loved you
All the time you were around
But when you had to leave
Is when my love was found
You brought me closer to God
Told me doing His will was first
You brought up to me eternal truths
For knowledge, you gave me thirst
You've shown me nothing but good things
You clearly want the best for me
You don't hold back from lovingly scolding
If I am doing things I shouldn't be
You removed some people and things
That weren't serving a positive need
Though that wasn't always easy
You surely have sown a good seed
So here I am thinking my mission was to care for you
When all along you've been caring for me
I can't wait for the day I'm with you
To show you my gratitude eternally
I was drawn to you
I just wanted to help you
With whatever I could do
I just wanted to care for you
To forever fill your cup
I'd finally found my other half
You showed me what was up
I wanted to silence the haters
Or anyone mean to you
It didn't quite turn out as planned
You showed me something new
I didn't know I loved you
All the time you were around
But when you had to leave
Is when my love was found
You brought me closer to God
Told me doing His will was first
You brought up to me eternal truths
For knowledge, you gave me thirst
You've shown me nothing but good things
You clearly want the best for me
You don't hold back from lovingly scolding
If I am doing things I shouldn't be
You removed some people and things
That weren't serving a positive need
Though that wasn't always easy
You surely have sown a good seed
So here I am thinking my mission was to care for you
When all along you've been caring for me
I can't wait for the day I'm with you
To show you my gratitude eternally
Wednesday, March 13, 2019
Love Is Waiting For You
Love is waiting
For everyone
That means all
Bar none
That includes those
Who've treated me real bad
Who've said and done mean things
Those that mad me sad
Those who turned people against me
Those who talked behind my back
Those that treated me cruel
Those that given me lots of flack
Whether you believe it or not
My love for you is there
I may not go around you
But I'll lift you up in prayer
If you told me you were drowning
I surely would lend a hand
Because I know hurt people hurt
That's what I understand
Of course I love those
Who've been so kind to me
You're the ones I look up to
The ones I'm inspired to be
No matter how you do me
My love is waiting for you
I guess it's the spirit of God in me
I guess that's just how I do
For everyone
That means all
Bar none
That includes those
Who've treated me real bad
Who've said and done mean things
Those that mad me sad
Those who turned people against me
Those who talked behind my back
Those that treated me cruel
Those that given me lots of flack
Whether you believe it or not
My love for you is there
I may not go around you
But I'll lift you up in prayer
If you told me you were drowning
I surely would lend a hand
Because I know hurt people hurt
That's what I understand
Of course I love those
Who've been so kind to me
You're the ones I look up to
The ones I'm inspired to be
No matter how you do me
My love is waiting for you
I guess it's the spirit of God in me
I guess that's just how I do
Friday, March 08, 2019
Monday, March 04, 2019
He Said What?
He said "You're not your family
And I'm not mine
That's just the truth
And it's perfectly fine
They are separate individuals
With souls and minds of their own
Only you and I are one
You'll never be alone
Don't feel you have to
Be part of the clan
Because at the end of the day
I'm your man
We were put with them
At the time of our birth
But it doesn't mean we're connected with them
In our life after Earth
We were all put here
To accomplish God's will
But not all relationships
Will fit that bill
Don't want it so bad
Their acceptance is not required
Just focus on us
You'll never get tired
I'm your family
We're bound together
Don't worry what's loosed
In Heaven I'm yours forever"
And I'm not mine
That's just the truth
And it's perfectly fine
They are separate individuals
With souls and minds of their own
Only you and I are one
You'll never be alone
Don't feel you have to
Be part of the clan
Because at the end of the day
I'm your man
We were put with them
At the time of our birth
But it doesn't mean we're connected with them
In our life after Earth
We were all put here
To accomplish God's will
But not all relationships
Will fit that bill
Don't want it so bad
Their acceptance is not required
Just focus on us
You'll never get tired
I'm your family
We're bound together
Don't worry what's loosed
In Heaven I'm yours forever"
Thursday, February 07, 2019
His Love Is The Feul
His love is the fuel
That keeps me going
All is good
When it's constantly flowing
If we work together
Imagine what we could accomplish
Big or small
Anything you wish
It'll be a thing of beauty
Because it is blessed
With you and I together
It will be the best
So don't hold back
Tell me what to do
Whatever it is
I'll do anything for you
That keeps me going
All is good
When it's constantly flowing
If we work together
Imagine what we could accomplish
Big or small
Anything you wish
It'll be a thing of beauty
Because it is blessed
With you and I together
It will be the best
So don't hold back
Tell me what to do
Whatever it is
I'll do anything for you
Sunday, January 27, 2019
What He Said To Me
"I'll give this to you
Along with my heart
When we're together
We'll never part
I want to give to you
The love you lacked in life
In other words
You'll be my eternal wife
Never again
Will you experience sorrow
I don't know when
Maybe tomorrow
Until that day
I give this to you
Please think of me always
In all that you do."
Along with my heart
When we're together
We'll never part
I want to give to you
The love you lacked in life
In other words
You'll be my eternal wife
Never again
Will you experience sorrow
I don't know when
Maybe tomorrow
Until that day
I give this to you
Please think of me always
In all that you do."
Saturday, January 26, 2019
Just Ask
I get you now
More than I ever did
Light has been shed
On things that were hid
Why I'm here
I'm trying to understand
But you're here for me
With a helping hand
They just assume things
And they just judge
They don't really know us
So they won't budge
Morphing into your abuser
Is a hard face to see
We try to change
We try to flee
We try to do God's work
But they don't see it our way
Constantly misunderstood
It's harder everyday
Just trying to find some happiness
Just like everyone wants to do
It's just we're a bit outside the box
They don't understand me and you
You've already graduated
Unto a better place
I'm the part of us held back
To finish up the race
I know that I can do this
With God and you by my side
And I know that when I get there
All my tears will be dried
More than I ever did
Light has been shed
On things that were hid
Why I'm here
I'm trying to understand
But you're here for me
With a helping hand
They just assume things
And they just judge
They don't really know us
So they won't budge
Morphing into your abuser
Is a hard face to see
We try to change
We try to flee
We try to do God's work
But they don't see it our way
Constantly misunderstood
It's harder everyday
Just trying to find some happiness
Just like everyone wants to do
It's just we're a bit outside the box
They don't understand me and you
You've already graduated
Unto a better place
I'm the part of us held back
To finish up the race
I know that I can do this
With God and you by my side
And I know that when I get there
All my tears will be dried
Wednesday, January 23, 2019
Feelings Of Love
Your voice to me
Is like a soothing balm
It can numb the pain
And keep me calm
It can turn my darkness
Into a ray of light
It can comfort my soul
On a lonely,cold night
And, also, too
When I see your face
I know nothing can separate us
Neither death, time,nor space
One so inwardly beautiful
Such as you are
Our souls are just one
No matter how bodily far
I long to feel your kisses and hugs
I know God's the one who planted the seed
Maybe my tears are making the love grow
And in the end, we'll both get what we need
Is like a soothing balm
It can numb the pain
And keep me calm
It can turn my darkness
Into a ray of light
It can comfort my soul
On a lonely,cold night
And, also, too
When I see your face
I know nothing can separate us
Neither death, time,nor space
One so inwardly beautiful
Such as you are
Our souls are just one
No matter how bodily far
I long to feel your kisses and hugs
I know God's the one who planted the seed
Maybe my tears are making the love grow
And in the end, we'll both get what we need
Wednesday, January 16, 2019
Before I Came
Before I came to be
There you were
Something was needed
For this pure sir
From your soul
I was made for you,nearly clone
But more like the shadow or essence of you
So though we couldn't see it, you'd never be alone
Then at a predestined time
He sent you down to the right place and DNA
I guess I must have missed you
Because I was eventually on my way
So much symmetry
In hindsight,I see
So very much the same
Yet played out differently
But now what's left for me to do
Except keep loving you and wait
Even though it's incredibly hard
I know God's timing is never late
There you were
Something was needed
For this pure sir
From your soul
I was made for you,nearly clone
But more like the shadow or essence of you
So though we couldn't see it, you'd never be alone
Then at a predestined time
He sent you down to the right place and DNA
I guess I must have missed you
Because I was eventually on my way
So much symmetry
In hindsight,I see
So very much the same
Yet played out differently
But now what's left for me to do
Except keep loving you and wait
Even though it's incredibly hard
I know God's timing is never late
Monday, January 07, 2019
Just Sayin
He just asked me
"Aren't you glad you got that poison out your system?"
I told him I am and I understood now
Then I looked him in the eyes and I kissed him
He's put me through so many changes
All for my betterment
He's always teaching me things
With patience and calm temperament
Sometimes I don't feel worthy
Of the love he will show me
He just says "Hush
You're my sweet little Nomy"
I could never repay him
For all the wonderful stuff
My only desire
Is to love him enough
So I'll say it here
For all the world to see
I've loved you forever
And will do so eternally
"Aren't you glad you got that poison out your system?"
I told him I am and I understood now
Then I looked him in the eyes and I kissed him
He's put me through so many changes
All for my betterment
He's always teaching me things
With patience and calm temperament
Sometimes I don't feel worthy
Of the love he will show me
He just says "Hush
You're my sweet little Nomy"
I could never repay him
For all the wonderful stuff
My only desire
Is to love him enough
So I'll say it here
For all the world to see
I've loved you forever
And will do so eternally
Sunday, December 30, 2018
Come As You Are
" Come as you are
You aren't very far"
I hear you whisper,it seems
Please say it's not a dream
I am no longer afraid
Of this thing we have made
I've come too far to let go
You're the only future I know
It's been a long process
But I'm thankful for the access
Through this journey, I've lost a few friends
It had to happen for my growth in the end
I like to see it as God's own protection
In return I received His hand-picked selection
Every day we're one day closer than ever before
I get all kinds of giddy when I imagine what's in store
I know it's around the corner
When I no longer will be a mourner
Our conversations help me cope
I have faith and I have hope
I pout like a child that I want to be with you now
The simple fact is I have no say anyhow
It's getting closer to the time when you whisper "Come as you are"
I know you want it too and the time isn't all that far
You aren't very far"
I hear you whisper,it seems
Please say it's not a dream
I am no longer afraid
Of this thing we have made
I've come too far to let go
You're the only future I know
It's been a long process
But I'm thankful for the access
Through this journey, I've lost a few friends
It had to happen for my growth in the end
I like to see it as God's own protection
In return I received His hand-picked selection
Every day we're one day closer than ever before
I get all kinds of giddy when I imagine what's in store
I know it's around the corner
When I no longer will be a mourner
Our conversations help me cope
I have faith and I have hope
I pout like a child that I want to be with you now
The simple fact is I have no say anyhow
It's getting closer to the time when you whisper "Come as you are"
I know you want it too and the time isn't all that far
Friday, December 28, 2018
Thursday, December 06, 2018
Popsicle Stand
Tell me when, please
I'm gonna blow this Popsicle stand
When will I stand next to you
And hold your hand
When am I gonna
Blow this joint
Loving one another
Is the only point
When will I make like a banana
And split
You say to "Hold on a bit longer
You must never quit
If you wait patiently
We will be together
It's worth the wait
For us to gain forever."
I'm gonna blow this Popsicle stand
When will I stand next to you
And hold your hand
When am I gonna
Blow this joint
Loving one another
Is the only point
When will I make like a banana
And split
You say to "Hold on a bit longer
You must never quit
If you wait patiently
We will be together
It's worth the wait
For us to gain forever."
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