These are my poems,from my heart. Some are to God,some are to my Bronze Adonis ,some are just for fun and in general
(Songs to match the mood of the poem...or is it the other way around? hmmm...)
All these thoughts in my mind
Getting more intense by the minute
Thoughts fighting with each other
Like the damn U.S Senate
I keep forgetting
That you read my mind
If I try to hide
You always find
Ever since yesterday
I've been upset
Something I learned
Made me fret
Why is it like this
Why is it like that
Wherever I go
You're always at
Like a gentle thunder I hear you ask
"Why do you always have to compete with me?"
I'm not competing. This time you're wrong and I'm right
"Yes you are" he said loving but firmly
With a slight cockiness in my voice I said
"I'll prove you wrong. I know I'm right
I'll show you the definition
In plain sight"
I knew in that second
I was kind of wrong
He proved his point
It didn't take long
By proving that I wasn't competing
I was literally doing that deed
I just love you,the voice of reason
You're all I'll ever need
Every minute we're apart
I want you more and more
Each second that goes by
I want you more than before
I know our souls are one
So we're never really apart
But if we're not actively engaging
It's like a dagger in my heart
That's why I don't watch much tv or movies
I get sad when I go out,eat or sleep
When I read or book or surf the net
In a short while,the loneliness starts to creep
I really love our special place
That's when I really feel at home
It gives me peace and comfort
I never want to roam
I try so hard,so patiently
While you're out there getting ready for us
If I stick to my part of the plan
The reward will be a plus
I'm starting to remember things
Like a slow unveiling
Like a ship in unsure waters
Starting to see where she's sailing
I remember the peace with God and angels
A place of unlimited love
A feeling of always belonging
As peaceful as a dove
Then one day, I don't know why
My spirit came down to Earth
I don't remember the details
But that was the day of my birth
Landing in a place of conditional love
All depending on someone's mood
Some days they are accepting
Other days they are quite rude
Still equipped with my gentle spirit
The world made an effort to dim my light
At points I lost my way
Trying to fit into this world right
In constant companion of users and abusers
I suppose dishing out what they, themselves took
Praying to God to help me out
For all that pain, I've been left shook
People don't generally put other's needs above theirs
I suppose that's the nature of man
Then I started to remember
That it's only God who can
The more I come back to my original spirit
I lose people left and right
I suppose they mostly think I'm strange
But I hope I'm displaying God's light
One great thing that happened
I found one who loves me unconditionally
Between he and God's personal promise
I know one day I'll be back home permanently
My love for you is pure
No matter what I have to endure
It's one thing that's for sure
It's one thing without a cure
The days are cold
My longing, bold
My love for you, gold
It never gets old
I hope you take note of my loyalty
When eternal life is reality
I'll show my love flamboyantly
Because in my spirit, you're my royalty
Do you hear that sound
That silent scream
Yes,you do
It's not a dream
It's my soul
Crying out to you
Dying for reunion
When we're no longer two
Waiting for that day
When we are one again
When are souls are joined together
My spirit will be at peace right then
I want to be alone with you
I don't just mean no one else around
I mean really all alone with you
Not even with any sound
I want you all to myself
I know that it sounds selfish
No one but you and me
That would be my wish
No sounds of people or creatures
No TV, Internet, or phone
No low buzzing of appliances
Just you and me alone
No sounds of people or cars passing by
Not a thing upon the wall
Nothing to distract from you
I just want you, that's all
My beautiful, handsome man
When will this come true
My soul cries with longing wails
To be all alone with you
Ingredients
1 soul of yours
1 soul of mine
Directions
Allow God to incorporate until we are one.
Allow God to marinate to perfection
Allow God to bake until His perfect timing is achieved
Trust the end product and enjoy forever!
I accept what which
Was given to me
It's what is mine
It's meant to be
It's supernatural
So it might sound crazy
I need to nurture this
And not be lazy
Please reveal more to me
Is my prayer today
I desire to do it right
Tell me what to do and say
I love this purpose
It's why I exist
It will never end
Because of love it consists
Look, I know I need you now
But I just realized I needed you then
How different my life could have been
If I'd have known you way back when
Yes, I agree, in an eternal way
We've always known each other
But if only you could have rescued me then
I wouldn't have been drowned or smothered
I suppose I would have just gotten in the way
Of the purpose that was ordained for you
It would have been selfish of me
From distracting you from what you had to do
I know,that speaking for myself
Nothing turned out like I thought it would
But something that I've come to learn
Is that all works out as it should
I'm glad we're back together
Although we are far apart
One day it won't be an issue
We'll soon be one, flesh and heart
Yes I am in love 💌
No, I can't speak about it
You will know one day
He occupies me
He runs through my mind all day
Yes, he is tired 😴
He's a gift from God
But he says I am his gift 🎁
I say we both win
Just spending time with you
Is like a bandage to my soul
For those moments in time
I feel so whole
Why cant it be this way
Every second of the day
I need this connection
To always stay
I guess it can't be that way
Or this would be Paradise
I guess it's not my time for that
But you ensure me a lovely surprise
I can't stop thinking about you
You say that makes your spirit glad
You want us to be happy with what we do have
The more time I spend with you,the less I'll be sad
Dear God,please help me hold on
Sometimes it just seems so long
If I have faith and persevere
The day will come I'll hear his song
I was lying down in bed,crying Wishing there were certain things I had There's a couple things I'd like to get Not having them makes me sad
I've been praying for years But the answer is "no" Or maybe "not yet" Should I just let it go?
It then dawned on me suddenly He rained the very best blessing on me The fact that I get to be in love with you Is the most beautiful blessing there could be
When I wake up in the morning And before I go to bed In between are loving thoughts of you Constantly running through my head
So I conclude it is a fact And Heaven knows it's true If I have nothing else I'm so blessed to love you
When we first came together
I was drawn to you
I just wanted to help you
With whatever I could do
I just wanted to care for you
To forever fill your cup
I'd finally found my other half
You showed me what was up
I wanted to silence the haters
Or anyone mean to you
It didn't quite turn out as planned
You showed me something new
I didn't know I loved you
All the time you were around
But when you had to leave
Is when my love was found
You brought me closer to God
Told me doing His will was first
You brought up to me eternal truths
For knowledge, you gave me thirst
You've shown me nothing but good things
You clearly want the best for me
You don't hold back from lovingly scolding
If I am doing things I shouldn't be
You removed some people and things
That weren't serving a positive need
Though that wasn't always easy
You surely have sown a good seed
So here I am thinking my mission was to care for you
When all along you've been caring for me
I can't wait for the day I'm with you
To show you my gratitude eternally